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i've already been through a lot of experiences with blood.

some of these were small things, like being taken a sample of blood from you twice on the same day, to more traumatic ones like that cat at the main lib.

and there was this one incident when i was still in high school. i was an incoming junior back then. i was on the way to pisay.

i was riding a jeep. then, there was this heavy traffic. on the other side of the road, i saw a jeep being towed away. its front was heavily damaged.

and of course, the only way the front of a vehicle could be heavily damaged is if it had been involved in an accident. maybe it smashed into something, like a tree, a post,

or another vehicle.

and a few meters away i knew what happened.

on the road was a motorcycle, also heavily damaged. and bent at an odd angle. (probably, the motorcycle was overtaking some other vehicle when it collided head on with the jeep on the opposite lane.)

and right beside it was a man, lying face down on the ground.

and his head was swimming in blood.

from what it looked like, the vehicular accident had just occurred. because we had already gotten a few meters away from the scene when an ambulance came and brought the body.

to date this is one of my most traumatic experiences with blood.

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so why am i writing about it today, if it had been years since that incident? i mean, i should be somewhat over with that, right?

well, a similar experience occurred just last night.

i was on the way home from the kas1 field trip.

and just like the previous incident that i related, i was riding a jeep. since i was tired from the field trip, i tried to sleep on the jeep. while i was sleeping, i was suddenly awakened because of a loud blowing of horns.

and just about the same time, i heard a loud crash.

the people beside me started screaming and gasping. i looked out to the side of the jeep, and i couldn't believe what i saw.

the jeep i was on had just collided with a motorcycle.

(correct me if i'm wrong, but i'm not a physics expert) the collision was inelastic, and from the law of conservation of momentum, the jeep couldn't stop immediately, so the motorcycle was dragged along by a few meters.

well, probably because of fright and shock, or to avoid being associated with the incident, all of us got off the jeep and walked as far as possible from the scene.

i couldn't see where the motorcycle driver was. he wasn't under the jeep (luckily, or else i'd really faint if i saw a body under the jeep.) but i saw large spots of blood near the jeep and a few meters from the site (probably at the exact place of impact.)

i got on another jeep as fast as possible. and as i was leaving the site, i got a look from at the jeep's front, and it really looked like the jeep i saw being towed away. (in the previous incident i related.)

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i don't want another traumatic experience. i'm already doing my best to remove this phobia, but no. more traumatic experiences just keep pn coming. and they somehow keep getting worse.

so this is why i write about my traumatic experiences. ironically, doing this makes me forget them. and move on.