what's with grades? i don't know why in the first place i've become so grade conscious - that i worry so much that i would not make it into the director's list. third quarter had passed and i might not make it (for the third time in a row this year) into the director's list. and yet i'm so close. but why am i still mad at myself for getting a grade like 2.50?
and then it dawned on me. i am aiming for the wrong goal. i had for this year made my end the grades, not the means. and i realized how stupid i was. grades should not be the end, but a means for a higher and better goal. and that is learning and experience. sure, grades will help me get a good job, or for applying for college, but it would not matter much after that. sure. it would determine whether i get to make it onto the director's list. oh sure. i would be happy if i see my name on my list. but after that, what? will there be peace on earth if i see my name on that list?
the point is.. grades should not be ultimate goal in learning. they are just numerical figures. they would not matter much in the future. people will seldom remember you just because of your grades. they would not say that you got a 1.25 in this subject on your deathbed. people would not talk about their grades during alumni homecomings, because there are things much more important than getting flat 1.0's. and that was what i should have realized long ago.
in my final quarter in pisay, i want to make a difference. i will try not to mind about my grades. i would do my best to learn without minding my grades. in other words, i will no longer be grade conscious. i will not care whether i make it into the director's list. i don't care whether i get another line of 2 in econ or str. i just want to learn. because this is my last in pisay. there is no second chance.
metamerism reminisced his memories
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