reminiscing life's moments...

[29] Now with 50% more Neil!

2009-08-03T06:49:00.000+08:00

THE SLOGAN GENERATOR: ADVERTISE YOURSELF.

- Go to: http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi
- Put your name in, and generate slogan after each question.

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
The right Neil at the right time. [what the heck?! :))]

2. What do you want other people say about you?
Next to the breast, Neil's the best. [OMG! =))]

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
Neil tested, mother approved. [payag daw si mummy! =))]

4. How would you answer a booty call?
Prolongs active Neil. [huh?]

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
Smart. Beautiful. Neil. [potek. beautiful?! =))]

6. to someone you dislike?
I saw Neil and I thought of you. [HAHAHA. >:)]

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
Neil just feels right. [WINNER! :))]

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
The Neil goes straight to your head. [baka lalong magalit sa akin parents ko pag sinabi ko ito. :))]

9. You're failing a subject, you say...
New thinking, new Neil [WALANG GANYANAN! :|]

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
I'm lovin' Neil. [woohoo! :))]

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
Kids will do anything for Neil. [okay~ :))]

12. Someone told you you're an asshole, you tell them...
Make someone happy with a Neil [huh? :))]

13. What are the best words to describe you?
Only Neil has the answer. [FTMFW! :))]

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
Welcome to Neil Country. [EPIC WIN! :))]

15. Your last words before you die..
Things go better with Neil. [parang BRB lang ah. :))]

16. Your message to a special someone..
Loves the Neil you hate. [ANG BITCHY NITO! :))]

17. Title of this post will be...
Now with 50% more Neil! [so 0.75 na population ko? :))]

[21] euphoria

2009-04-06T05:40:00.000+08:00

/* a feeling of happiness, confidence, or well-being */

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woot, buhay pa ako sa PE 2 PF! :))
thank you Lord! :)

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bago ako pumunta ng FR, nag-email na ako kay ma'am tungkol sa practical exams na na-miss ko. [sabay banat na rin kina mark arabit kasi wala na akong narinig sa kanya.]

eto ung email ko:

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Good morning, Ma'am.

I still haven't taken my practical exams for Palakis and Daling-Daling. Your student assistants have told me last week that they will notify me when my make-up practical exams would be, but I still haven't heard from them.

Will I still be allowed to take the practical exams? If you would, please let me take these exams at your most convenient time.

Hoping for your kind (re)consideration,

Miranda, Neil Jon Louie P.
2007-46489
PE 2 PF

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tapos kanina lang nagreply si ma'am:

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Been checking your records. Sorry for the oversight from my student assistants, but the problem is how you will take the test seeing as you won't have a partner to dance with you? Grades are due on April 14. You can still make up for it if you can find someone to dance with you. Another option is a paper (around 6 - 8 pages) about Philippine Folk Dance and what can be done to revive the interest of Filipino youth. I noticed that you write very well based on your paper on the Filipiniana Concert. This option is right around your alley. If you do this instead, you can email your paper as an attachment and will grade it in lieu of your practical exams.

Dr. L. Gonzalo

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di ko na kailangang hintayin si mark arabit. buti na lang nag-email ako kay ma'am.
masimulan na nga ang paper na ito. :))

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/* buhay pa si oble! :D */

[20] denouement

2009-04-01T01:30:00.000+08:00

/* the outcome or resolution of a doubtful series of occurrences */

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i swear hindi ko alam kung paano i-pronounce ang word na yan. :)

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Changes in My Life
Mark Sherman

I was not so happy being lonely
Living without you
So I prayed so hard for your love
In my heart I needed you
Then I looked up in the sky
And I'm thinking why oh why
These are all the many changes in my life

After all the caring and the laughter
No one else like you
I am not a preacher with a sermon
I'm so in love with you
'Cause to live without your love
Like the sun that shines above
Is the magic of the changes in my life

And I'll never forget your love
You and I
We were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I
These are all the many changes in my life

Listen to these words I want to give you
On our love so true
Don't forget I love you and I need you
I'll always be with you
So just look up in the sky
And you'll find out why oh why
These are all the many changes in my life

And I'll never forget your love
You and I
We were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I
These are all the many changes, these are all the many changes,
These are all the many changes in my life

And I'll never forget your love
You and I
We were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I

These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes in my life

And I'll never forget your love
You and I,
We were meant to be
Sweet as rain
Falling from the sky
You and I

These are all the many changes, these are all the many changes,
These are all the many changes in my life (3x)

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gabi-gabi ko itong naririnig sa radio. at na-LSS na ako dito. :)
it's amazing na three months ago, wala akong pakialam sa mga kantang ganyan.

oh well.

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/* huling hirit na ito. tapos na kasi eh. */

[19] transmission

2009-03-26T16:07:00.000+08:00

/* the broadcasting of electromagnetic waves from one location to another */

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LECHENG EEE 23 FOURTH EXAM YAN. pfft.
i hate transmission lines.

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two exams down. more to go.

28 MARCH (Saturday)
EEE 35 Final Exam
Math 55 Final Exam

30 MARCH (Monday)
ES 11 Final Exam

01 APRIL (Wednesday)
EEE 23 Final Exam

03 APRIL (Friday)
Econ 31 Final Exam

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supposedly, sa Math 55 lang dapat ako magffinals (duh. wala kasing exemption sa finals ng Math 55.)

don't ask why i'm still going to take the finals on the rest of these subjects.
lalo na sa ES 11.
[BOO ONSE.]

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/* do or die. grrr... */

[18] electromagnetism

2009-03-26T06:30:00.000+08:00

/* the phenomena associated with electric and magnetic fields and their interactions with each other and with electric charges and currents. */

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just one quick post bago ako umalis ng bahay.

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thank you, James Clerk Maxwell and colleagues.
kung hindi dahil sa inyo ay wala dapat kaming pinagkakaabalahan ngayon.
wala dapat kaming minememorize na sangkatutak na equations.

leche.

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parang ayaw ko na tuloy mag-WCEL.
sabagay.. ayoko namang maging parang PA ni Doc M tuwing last meeting na ng EEE 23. :))

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onga pala. just heard last night na may bagong chairman na raw ang Electrical and Electronics Engineering Institute. at siya ay walang iba kundi si...

Dr. Joel Joseph S. Marciano, Jr.

eh di siya na. :))

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/* too long for a quick post. haha. */

[17] slumber

2009-03-24T04:03:00.000+08:00

/* to be in a state of inactivity, negligence, quiescence, or calm */

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"...[EEE 23] Meeting [with Dr. Marciano] on March 24 1300-1430 is moved to March 25, 1330-1500."

- Sir Tai

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so wala pala akong dahilan para pumasok ngayon. wala na akong ibang class eh. [optional na rin naman kasi ang last meeting sa ES 11.]

oh well. balik sa kama. :))

*****

/* zzz... */

[16] impulsive

2009-03-21T17:47:00.000+08:00

/* acting momentarily. */

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it's like the response of a linear time-invariant system to a certain input signal:

if after a certain period of time, the input signal is already gone, but the system still hasn't stabilized, don't blame the input signal; blame the system.

or better yet, modify the system so that it becomes stable regardless of the input signal.

but of course you know nothing about these, do you?

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MAG-ARAL KA NA KASI. EEE 35 EXAM NA SA MONDAY.

["...and kung gusto nyong bumawi, this exam's your chance..." - Sir Talampas]
haha. labo.

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THIRD PLACE ANG UP CIRCUIT SA EOEA 2009!

congrats rin pala sa UP ALCHEMES at UP KEM, na nakakuha ng second and first places, respectively.

sana bigyan ni Dean Gev ng bonus ang lahat ng Circuit na kumukuha ng EEE 35 ngayon. hehe. :))

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well at least nacounteract ang super pangit na simula ng araw ko.
thank you, judges.
[more like thank you, Emerson Tan, Louie Vallejo and Polly Sy. :))]

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/* (sings) i want nobody nobody but you... :)) */

[14] zebra

2009-03-15T19:55:00.000+08:00

/* any of several horselike African mammals of the genus Equus, each species having a characteristic pattern of black or dark-brown stripes on a whitish background: all zebra species are threatened or endangered. */

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THE ZEBRA PROBLEM

There are five men, each of different nationalities.
They live in five consecutive houses, each painted with a different color.
Each man has a distinct job, a distinct pet, and a distinct favorite drink.

> The Englishman lives in the red house.
> The Spaniard owns a dog.
> The Japanese is a painter.
> The Italian drinks tea.
> The Norwegian lives on the first house.
> The green house is on the right of the white house.
> The photographer breeds snails.
> The diplomat lives on the yellow house.
> Milk is drunk on the middle house.
> Coffee is drunk on the green house.
> The Norwegian lives next to the blue house.
> A horse is kept on the house next to the diplomat's house.
> A fox is kept on the house next to the physician's house.
> The violinist drinks orange juice.

Now, who drinks water, and who owns the zebra?

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pinasolve ito sa amin nung training namin last friday.
aj, nakuha mo na yung sagot? :)

guys, solve nyo nga. just for fun. OR NOT. :))

*****

/* The ----- drinks water. The ----- owns the zebra. */

[13] blogthing

2009-03-15T17:38:00.000+08:00

There Are 0 Gaps in Your Knowledge

Where you have gaps in your knowledge:

No Gaps!

Where you don't have gaps in your knowledge:

Philosophy
Religion
Economics
Literature
History
Science
Art

Do You Have Gaps in Your Knowledge?

haha. :))
[more to come. kapag sinipag ako. hehe.]

[12] secretive

2009-02-25T18:37:00.000+08:00

/* showing a disposition to secrecy. */

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nakikigaya lang. haha. :))

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40 secrets about you. ~~Be honest no matter what.~~ ASA. haha.

[one] who was your last 4 texts from?
>> janel, melai, joe and carl.

[two] where was your display picture taken?
>> pisay field. para sa econ magazine namin nung 4th year. :)

[three] who is your love one?
>> uhmm... GO TEAM MARTYR! :))

[four] your current relationship status?
>> see question [three] :))

[five] does your crush like you back?
>> pwedeng next question na lang? :))

[six] what is your current mood?
>> sleepy. (mood ba yun?)

[seven] what's your mom's middle name?
>> Burgos

[eight] what color shirt are you wearing?
>> white

[nine] are you horny?
>> DUH. HINDI. (asa)

[ten] if you could go back in time and change something, would you?
>> of course. :|

[eleven] where was the last place out of town, that you went to?
>> Mt. Makiling, Los Baños, Laguna. nung cwts camping. hehe.

[twelve] ever had a near death experience?
>> wala akong maalala. pinakamalala na siguro ung ilang beses nang muntik masagasaan. haha.

[thirteen] something you do a lot?
>> study. [oops. bawal magmura. :))]
>> seriously, mag-SimCity 4. :)

[fourteen] who's your best friend at the moment?
>> si gyudon vector, a.k.a. gev. :))

[fifteen] who can you tell anything to?
>> anything not confidential to anyone. anything medyo confidential sa ckt07 and/or pisay07. anything super confidential, kay gev lang. :)

[sixteen] name someone with the same birthday as you?
>> David Archuleta. mas matanda lang siya sa akin ng isang taon. haha. [alam na kung bakit maganda ang boses niya. or boses ko. JOKE. :))]

[seventeen] when was the last time you cried?
>> February 24, 2009. no further comments.

[sixteen] where are you right now?
>> bedroom ko.

[nineteen] if you could have one super power what would it be?
>> time and mind control.

[twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
>> buhok. [saan? :))]

[twenty-one] who is your favorite celebrity?
>> ung nagsabi ng "I really don't know" sa commercial ng Head and Shoulders. haha. :))

[twenty-two] what is a theory that you believe?
>> pwedeng dalawang theorem na lang imbes na isang theory?
>> kapag EEE-related, Divergence Theorem.
>> kapag non-EEE related, Fermat's Last Theorem.

[twenty-three] favorite colour?
>> blue, yellow and pink. parang exam papers lang eh no. :))

[twenty-four] what is one thing that annoys you on tv?
>> showbiz news shows. ang tsismosa kasi ng dating.

[twenty-five] do you still like kiddy movies?
>> oo. eh bata pa naman ako ha. (WALANG AANGAL.)

[twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment?
>> wala. (which reminds me... gutom ako.)

[twenty-seven] do you speak any other language?
>> C. (nyak, corny.)

[twenty-eight] what's your favorite smell?
>> yung amoy ng photocopy powder. nakaka-high eh. :))

[twenty-nine] describe your life in one word?
>> (a+jb) [sorry na lang sa hindi makagets nyan.]

[thirty] have any tattoos?
>> asa.

[thirty-one] what are you looking forward to the most?
>> end ng sem.

[thirty-two] what are you thinking about right now?
>> wala.

[thirty-three] what should you be doing?
>> sleeping.

[thirty-four] who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
>> ung manggagatsong jeepney driver kanina. ang layo ng binabaan ko eh. :))

[thirty-five] what are you listening to?
>> Listen by Beyonce (more like ung binaboy na version ni Regine. haha.)

[thirty-six] do you like working in the yard?
>> work na nga lang ayoko. un pa kayang working in the yard. :))

[thirty-seven] what colour are your nails?
>> the color they should be. BLACK. joke.

[thirty-eight] do you act differently around the person you like?
>> depende. pag marina mode syempre. :))

[thirty-nine] what is your natural hair colour?
>> black. [bakit ang daming color-related questions?]

[forty] why did you cry the last time you did?
>> WTF. pwedeng next question na lang?
>> oh. there isn't a next question.

*****

/* ayan. LSS na. (singing) I am the dog who leave you... :)) */

[11] bloodshot

2009-02-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

/* red because of dilated blood vessels. */

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it's 1 AM. and yet hindi pa ako natutulog.
/* at hindi na ako pwede matulog unless gusto kong magcut sa 7am class ko. */
meron na lang akong apat na oras bago ako maghanda for class.

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loser talaga econ 31. sumabay pa ang day ng exam sa onse. kaya ayan.

imbes na mga formulas lang ng moments of inertia ang minememorize ko, may kung anu-ano pa. not to mention kailangan ko pang intindihin ang transcript ng dalawang two-hour documentaries, makinig sa up to 2.5 hours of audio files ("for recommended listening" daw pero feeling ko kasama sa exam), at i-sort out ang lahat ng lecture notes namin.

define feeling major. pfft.

*****

oh well. balik aral mode ulit.
nagpapahinga lang kaya nagawang magblog. :)

*****

/* sige na lang. */

[10.1] potpourri

2009-02-09T17:44:00.000+08:00

/* any mixture, especially of unrelated objects, subjects, etc. */

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dahil wala akong magawa...

11 Random Thoughts

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1. camping == wee!

kapagod. pero super fun naman.
gusto ko siya ulitin, provided na:
>> hindi maputik ang aakyatin.
>> may matinong water supply.
>> hindi lang de-lata ang dala kong pagkain.
>> may libro ako para hindi ako parating bored.
>> wala si ______. :))
>> walang gagong JI. HAHA.

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2. McDo == <3

super miss ko nang kumain ng hindi de-lata.
kaya... after ng Math 114 exam ng mga Vallejo at Balbuena people, kumain kami ni Denise, Carlo+Adel, Carl, Joe at Lorr sa McDo Philcoa. haha.

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3. ES 11 CLW 9 == yay. :)

kasi exactly 4 pa rin ang average ng quizzes ko. :)
pero bwisit pa rin ang individual scheme sa CLW. :|

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4. Math 114 Exam == BOO.

No mountain, no valley
No time, no [vector] space.

(nyek. corny.)

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5. whoa.

bigatin pala mga prof ko ngayong sem eh.

ilang beses ko nang nabanggit na ang prof ko sa Econ 31 ay ang dating dean ng SE, si Dr. Fabella. pero alam nyo ba na ang prof ko sa PE 2 PF, si Ma'am Leilani Gonzalo, ay may Ph.D pala? hindi lang yan. dating dean siya ng CHK.

buti nga hindi ko prof si Dean Ancajas ngaun eh. HAHA.

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6. ako po si neil, neil, neil miranda, ang luluhod sa USC. :))

potek. ang corny.

simula na pala ng campaigning period para sa student council elections.
(see Carl's latest post.)

tatakbo na rin ako next year. Oblation Run nga lang. JOKE.

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7.

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8.

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9. bakit nga ba 10.1?

onga. hehe.

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10. i love Air Supply.

kahit na patama mga kanta nila.
sana may boses din ako na ganun kataas.

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11. i'm not yet ready.

na-shock ako sa nangyari kay kimmy ngayong araw.
well. kung ako ung nasa ganung sitwasyon, di ko rin un kakayanin.

[i really don't know you at all.

[10] potpourri

2009-01-30T18:00:00.000+08:00

/* any mixture, especially of unrelated objects, subjects, etc. */

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TEAM POISSON FTW! :)

*****

EEE 35 Second Long Exam
2 February 2009
7:00 AM - 10:00 AM

*****

leche. hindi pa ako nakakapag-aral nang matino para sa exam sa monday. at kinakabahan talaga ako.

/* touch my BODE... :)) */

*****

nagsimula na ulit akong mag-aral ng piano.
sayang naman kasi ung keyboard sa bahay.. nakatiwangwang lang at walang gumagamit. :|

wala lang, sharing lang.

/* hindi ko pa rin kayang patugtugin ang Moonlight Sonata sa keyboard namin. kaasar. grrr. */

*****

ang saya ng buddy date kanina! :)
masaya pala kasama si buddy. BITCH din pala kasi siya. right, alai? :))
sayang at hindi ito mababasa ni buddy kasi wala siyang multiply. oh well.

*****

/* wala na talaga. */

[88]

[9] gauge

2009-01-28T17:32:00.000+08:00

/* criterion. test. exam. */

*****

here is a very helpful tip in answering an exam:
Do NOT use correction fluid.

*****

palibhasa hindi lang OC ung nagcheck nung exam paper ko eh.

*****

/* EEE 35 na lang. */

[8] iniquitous

2009-01-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

/* bad in principle. */

*****

ninakaw mula kay rhoda.

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Total the number of things in each list you've done.
No need to say which ones if you don't want to.
If people really want to know, they will message you.

1. smoked
2. consumed alcohol
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5. kissed someone of the same sex
6. had sex
7. had someone in your room other than family
8. watched porn
9. bought porn
10. done drugs
Total: 6

1. taken painkillers
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents
4. lied to a friend
5. snuck out of the house
6. done something illegal
7. cut yourself
8. hurt someone
9. wished someone to die
10. seen someone die
Total: 7

1. missed curfew
2. stayed out all night
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
4. been to a therapist
5. been to rehab
6. dyed your hair
7. received a ticket
8. been in an accident
9. been to a club
10. been to a bar
Total: 5

1. been to a wild party
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade
3. drank more than four beers in a night
4. had a spring break in Florida
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands
8. wore t-shirts with band names
9. listened to rap
10. owned a 50 Cent CD
Total: 2

1. dressed gothic
2. dressed prep
3. dressed punk
4. dressed grunge
5. stole something
6. been too drunk not to remember anything
7. blacked out
8. fainted
9. had a crush on a neighbor
Total: 3

1. snuck into someone else's room
2. had a crush on your friend
3. been to a concert
4. dry-humped someone
5. been called a slut
6. called someone a slut
7. installed speakers in your car
8. broken a mirror
9. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
10. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush
Total: 6

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater
3. cruised the mall
4. cut classes
5. had surgery
6. had an injury
7. gone to court
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping
9. caught something on fire
10. lied about your age
Total: 6

1. owned/rented an apartment
2. broke the law in the police's presence
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police
5. talked to a stranger
6. hugged a stranger
7. kissed a stranger
8. rode in the car with a stranger
9. been harassed
10. been verbally harassed
Total: 4

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online
2. stayed online for 5 hours straight
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight
5. been to a fair
6. been called a bad influence
7. drink and drive
8. prank-called and text someone
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex
10. cheated on a test
Total: 7

Grand Total = 46

If you have less than 10: I'm an uber goody goody.
If you have more than 10: I'm still a goody goody.
If you have more than 20: I'm average.
If you have more than 30: I'm a bad person.
If you have more than 40: I'm a very bad influence.
If you have more than 50: I'm a horrible person.

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no comment. :|

*****

/* onse mode muna. */

[7] deuce

2009-01-19T19:45:00.000+08:00

/* a situation in which a player must score two successive points to win the game or two successive games to win the set */

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di ako gagawa ng tennis-related post. (pero since start na ng australian open, asahan nating babaha ng tennis-related posts c/o carl. haha.)

tingnan nyo ung suot ni djokovic sa picture sa left. ring any bells?

wala lang. napansin ko lang. hehe.

*****

/* i really should sleep now. */

[6] hitch

2009-01-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

/* fasten or tie. */

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gising pa ako. :|

*****

salamat, cwts.

hindi ako makapaniwalang nag-aaral ako para sa subject na ito. lecheng knot tying yan.

kinakabahan pa ako dun sa rappel na paakyat (di ko alam tawag dun). baka bigla na lang akong mahulog habang paakyat ako.

*****

at andyan pa ang onse. ampf.

*****

/* grabe lang neil. wala kang alam sa time management. */

[5] entropy

2009-01-17T11:38:00.000+08:00

/* a measure of randomness. (thermodynamics) */

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tagged by jayne. :|

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Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post a line from the first 25 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly and put their names after the songs they guessed.
Step 5: No cheating. I mean it, you people. D:<

*****

parang yung nasa 08a logbook lang. hehe.

mamatay ang mandurugas. :))
/* or at least mangati lang ng todo ang *toot.* joke. */

*****

01. It's 6 AM, the clock is ringing; I need to spend an hour snoozing...
02. I don't know what's worth fighting for, or why I have to scream...
03. When I come to the clubs, step aside; Part the seas, don't be having me in the line...
04. Looking for your hot stuff; Baby I need it...
05. Twenty-five years and my life is still; Trying to get up that great big hill of hope...
06. A few times I've been around that track; So it's not just gonna happen like that...
07. So shut your eyes, kiss me goodbye, and sleep...
08. Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you...
09. Your love as far as I can see is all I'm ever gonna need...
10. I wonder how, I wonder why; Yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky...
11. Well when you go; Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay...
12. Damn right, it's better than yours; I can teach you, but I have to charge...
13. California show your teeth; She's my priestess, I'm your priest...
14. Somebody else around everyone else; you're watching your back like you can't relax...
15. But I'm hoping so much you'll stay; That you will love me anyway...
16. With a taste of a poison paradise; I'm addicted to you...
17. Anyone can hurt someone they love; Hearts can break, 'coz I made a stupid mistake...
18. I am not afraid to keep on living; I am not afraid to walk this world alone...
19. Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard; They will not be pushed aside or turned...
20. Spending all your money on me, and spending time on me...
21. I don't know what you heard about me; But a bitch can't get a dollar out of me...
22. So when you feel like hope is gone; Look inside you and be strong...
23. And if you carry on this way; Things are better if I stay...
24. I'll be your number one with a bullet; A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it.
25. I don't wanna talk about things we've gone through; Though it's hurting me, now it's history...

*****

ililibre ko ang makakapagbigay ng 17th correct answer. [counted in the order na masagot sila, NOT in the order by which they appear above.] :) hehe.

don't worry. wala akong inimbento dyan. lahat ng kanta dyan narinig niyo na... in one way or another. :)

wala nga namang sinabing magtag. kaya steal if you want. :)

*****

/* LSS sa #17 at #25 :)) */

[4] epigram

2009-01-14T18:00:00.000+08:00

/* a witty, ingenious, or pointed saying tersely expressed. */

*****

HINDI AKO NA-LATE SA PE KANINA!
or not. ewan. basta wala pang nangyayari nung dumating ako.
c'mon. parang hindi talaga ako ito. :))

*****

"Nature's nature and Nature's laws were hid in night. God said, 'Let Newton be,' and there was light." - Alexander Pope

ano daw? di ko gets.

grabe lang econ 31. nagdiscuss bigla si (ex-)dean fabella ng physics stuff.

kamusta naman at bigla na lang niyang nababanggit ang Newtonian laws of motion, Kepler's laws of planetary motion, Michelson-Morely experiment, Heisenberg's uncertainty principle, Higgs boson, string theory, relativity, blah blah blah.

and hindi lang basta-basta banggit ha. complete with explanation. at tama pa.
/* except ung fact na irreducible na raw ang Newton's laws of motion. eh ung first law ay parang special case lang kaya nung second law. or something like that. sabi sa es 11 book eh. HAHA. */

teka. econ 31 nga ba itong na-enlist kong GE? :))

*****

hindi nagets ni sir mends ung report ko sa eee 23! :( bahala siya. basta tama yun. na-verify ko na and everything. haha.

palibhasa kasi complicated nung expression sa final answer inisip niya agad na may mali. leche. :|

basta nasa kanya na ang katangi-tanging kopya ko ng solution sa problem na yun. kung di niya gets, magsama sila ni cielo. PEACE. :))

*****

/* i want a up planner. or not. */

[3] convolution

2009-01-13T16:28:00.000+08:00

/* rolling or winding together. nakakahilo. */

*****

flip. shift. multiply == convolve. or CONVOLUTE. haha. :))

*****

hindi na naman ako umabot kanina sa eee 35. :| naka-apat na yata ako. (or was it five?) haay.

*****

kagabi, quoting erwin's words, ay "ang unang Jollibee kain us for the year". (or something like that.) after ng exam, kumain ako, si rhoda, melai(s), erwin, stephen, carlo, lorr, joe at kambal sa Jollibee. [sa mcdo siguro dapat kami, but they were too busy dealing with trash. right, melai? :))]

well, anyway... after namin kumain, at after makasakay lahat ng tao bukod sa amin ni stephen at erwin, may lumapit na guy sa amin. apparently nagkamali raw sila ng nasakyan (forgot much of the details of his story) at humihingi ng kaunting abuloy para daw makauwi sila. nagbigay si stephen. tapos, out of gratitude, naisip niyang magpakilala.

GUY: Ako nga pala si Ian Joseph. *shakes hands with the three of us.* taga-UP ba kayo? buti pa kayo... ang yayaman.

dun na ba tanyag ang UP ngayon? nakakadisturb. more like nakakalungkot. :|

*****

speaking of nakakalungkot..

binalik na ung unang exam namin sa math 55. at ito na ang lowest math exam ko ever. :(

not that kuripot sa partial points si ma'am. actually generous siya sa partial points. as in super.

35 points lang kasi ung exam kaya malaki na kahit ang 5 points. eh may problem pa naman akong hindi nasagutan. don't ask why.

babawi ako next exam. :|

*****

/* bakit parang down ang UVLE ngayon? */

[2] stochastic

2009-01-12T18:00:00.000+08:00

/* involving a random variable. blah blah. */

*****

s-t-o-c-h-a-s-t-i-k.
/* shit. mali napindot ko! bawal pa naman mag-backspace oh. leche. :)) */

*****

last Friday, di ako umabot sa 7 am class ko. /* as always... */ pagdating ko ng tambayan, andun si cielo, stephen at... kat? (eh di ako na ang ulyanin. haha.) wala raw silang math 114.

matagal pa naman next class ng karamihan sa amin kaya naglaro na lang kami ng kung anu-ano. kasama na yang spelling-bee type na laro. forgot the name. hehe.

spelling-bee as in babanggitin ung word tapos kailangan mo siyang i-type. bawal gumamit ng backspace. so kung mali napindot, sorry ka. tanggal ka pag nagkamali ka.

swerte ni cielo. first word na pina-spell sa kanya, "rapport." :))

eto pa. si kat, "dossier."

wala lang, na-share ko lang. kasi naman eh. nakita ko ung word na "stochastic" sa essay ng classmate ko sa econ 31. pfft. isang essay na kailangan kong i-criticize. /* as if maalam ako sa econ di ba. :| */

*****

onga pala.

KAMBAL! try kong gawin MP nyo ha. :)

para at least hindi mangalawang programming skills ko. or not.

/* basta hindi kailangang gumamit ng Glade game ako. */

adik lang naman si sir guinto. habang patagal nang patagal ang stay niya sa EEE lalong humihirap mga MP niya. lalo na ung e-Console. argh.

e-Console $ pwd
/home/Documents
e-Console $ ls
.
..
e-Console $

/* tama na nga itong kabitteran. :| */

*****

/* nakakabwisit pa rin ang "connoisseur." o ayan. alam ko na spelling ng lecheng word na yan. */

[1] hard-headed

2009-01-12T03:00:00.000+08:00

/* stubborn. wilful. pasaway. :| */

*****

may klase ako in one hour pero nasa bahay pa rin ako.

male-late na naman ako. /* what's new? */ boo.
/* di bale. CWTS naman eh. ayos lang naman un kay justin eh. :)) */

seriously. kailangan kong ayusin ang sense of time ko. :|

*****

/* brrr. ang lamig. */

senior year.

2008-11-04T01:05:00.000+08:00

grabbed from melai.

4th YEAR HIGH SCHOOL

Anong section ka nung 4th year?
>> Electron

Sinong palagi mong kasama pag lunch?
>> no one in particular.

Anong unang subject mo?
>> pinoy (monday & thursday)
>> econ (tuesday and friday)
>> bio (wednesday)

Sinong paboritong teacher mo?
>> sir vlad and sir de ocampo :)

Ilang subjects meron ka nun?
>> 12 subjects: bio, chem, physics, math 5, math 7 (elective), english, pinoy, econ, str 2, comp sci, pe+health+cat

May mga nakaaway ka ba? Bakit?
>> i dunno. :|

Kumusta naman ang JS nyo?
>> bongga. 08-sponsored and phantom-inspired eh. :))

Kung lalaki ka may hindi ka ba naisayaw na gusto mong isayaw? Kung babae ka, may gusto mo bang magsayaw sayo na hindi ka isinayaw?
>> secret. :)

Sino yun?
>> ...

Sino pinaka crush mo nung 4th year?
>> you already know eh. :))

Bakit mo sya naging crush?
>> it'd be obvious if i tell you why. :)

Most unforgettable moment nung 4th year?
>> kkkwiz.
>> math 7 ymsat week presentation. [that was sooo humiliating :))]

Sino pinaka matalino sa classroom niyo?
>> i dunno. >:) but i go for ryan. :)

Sino pinakamaganda? Pinakagwapo?
>> of course, *toot* and i. :))

Sinong teacher ang pinaka mahilig magbigay ng homework?
>> sir talaue and ma'am quines? :))

Sino naman ang pinaka masipag magturo?
>> sir vlad FTW!

Eh pinakatamad magturo?
>> sir tafaleng. :)) [is there anything he has to teach in str 2?]
>> ma'am cion [we once found her at the caf during our class time. :))]
>> sir sherwin [too many absences.]

Madami ka bang kakilala?
>> from other batches? yeah.
>> from 07? of course.

Sikat ba ang school nyo?
>> DUH.

Sinong valedictorian nyo?
>> N/A. but we all know who got the highest gwa. *ehemkevgonehem*

Deserving ba sya?
>> duh.

Sino naman ang salutatorian?
>> N/A. but we all know who got the next-highest gwa. *ehemrobehem*

May mga nang-away ba sayo?
>> haha. >:)

Kung ibabalik ang high school days, anong gusto mong baguhin?
>> second year, i suppose.

May mga kabarkada ka ba?
>> yeah.

Nasubukan mo na bang mag cutting noon?
>> of course! :))

Eh ma-guidance?
>> nope. :)

--------------------------------------------------------
SENIOR YEAR

Close friends?
>> yup. :)

Favorite class?
>> math 5, math 7, chem.

Worst class?
>> physics and str. >:)

Favorite memory?
>> going to the caf during pinoy time and before physics. :))
>> bullcrap monday morning sched: pinoy+earlier physics+double str. :))

Worst memory?
>> str 2. joke. :))

How was your LAST summer vacation?
>> i dunno. boring?

Crushes?
>> *toot* :))

Did you apply for college?
>> of course.

Did you get in?
>> HAHAHA.

What you wanted to do with your career?
>> i decided to take up bs ece, then ms math (or ms applied math) afterwards. though a lot expected that i take up bs math.

Were you stressed often?
>> who wasn't?

Did you get teary eyed at all?
>> retreat. :)

Were you afraid to move on?
>> no.

Did you you go to prom?
>> duh. :)

Who did you go with?
>> jen jen was my prom date. :)

Did you go to graduation?
>> DUH.

Class song?
>> i dunno. Beyond Ourselves? haha. :)) /* moments cut too short... */

Class motto?
>> was there any?
>> wait. there was one. "electrown... order~!"

How old are you now?
>> sweet 16. :P

Thing you miss most about highschool?
>> everything, except...

Thing you miss least?
>> ...caf food? :))

That ONE teacher you'll remember?
>> sir nat. :)

One silly memory?
>> see "most unforgettable moment" above.
>> the math 7 boys danced to the music of "Legs" in front of other schools' delegates to the interscholastic quiz bee held by pisay during the ymsat week. [sir petri's comment after our performance: "eh kung kapal ng mukha lang pala ang criterion uno na kayo sa math 7." :))]

One sad memory?
>> none that i could remember.

One moment/feeling you'll never forget?
>> batch unity. :)

Your overall highschool experience was?
>> ..., is, and will be treasured forever. :)

Do you still see your friends?
>> of course.

geek.

2008-10-25T11:35:00.000+08:00

here's a list of shows i want to watch during the sembreak (and for the days to come.)

1. CSI: Crime Scene Investigation [the one in Las Vegas]
2. CSI: Miami
3. CSI: New York
4. Numb3rs
5. Gray's Anatomy
6. House

fine. i'm the nerd who doesn't want to rest my mind.
well, it's still a break from acad-related stuff.

7. Gossip Girl
8. Heroes

the two would have to wait. sorry.

*****

since i'm too lazy download every single episode, where can i buy dvds of the shows listed above? haha. :)

[sixty-three days and seventeen hours to go. ><]

i hate you bob ong.

2008-10-25T10:29:00.000+08:00

grabbed from everybody else.

*****

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. “Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala”

17. “Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan”

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo."

20. "Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang mga taong malalapit sa iyo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo."

21. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.."

*****

oh well. but then again, it's me to blame.
not her, not her, not everybody else. ><

good and bad.

2008-10-22T07:45:00.000+08:00

[good news]

CRS has been unusually good to me for next sem's preenlistment.
no more third batch run for me. nyahahaha! :))

[bad news]

sir guinto already uploaded our lab grades for eee13.
and it'll take a miracle for me to get a grade of 1.00.
oh well. :'(

[sixty-six days, nineteen hours and forty-five minutes to go. ><]

EEE 33 FINAL REVIEW SESSION

2008-10-17T18:04:00.000+08:00

Saturday, October 18, 2008
12:00 PM
Eng'g Lib 2 / Circuit tambayan

*****

Participants are encouraged to bring the following:
- lecture slides, notes, books, etc.
- rainbow pads (or any other paper)
- writing materials (bringing whiteboard markers is highly encouraged)
- scientific calculator
- any other items deemed fit for the review session
- FOOD (and lots of it)

*****

Non-majors and freshies are more than welcome.
Those exempted from taking the final exam are MOST WELCOME.

*****

[brought to you by The Neil and Tammy Show.]
[whatever.]

i need a break.

2008-10-11T20:04:00.000+08:00

'cause all this stress is no longer healthful...

and eee33 doesn't give me the rest i need.
(imagine trying to study while you're hot. as in literally.)

and i'm sure everybody wants a break.
oh, i can't wait for this sem to end.

UP-iana.

2008-10-11T20:00:00.000+08:00

stolen from the rest of the world. or not. :)

ANO'NG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
:: 2007 46489.

NAKAPASA KA BA OR WAITLISTED?
:: pasado. with flying colors. >:)

PAANO MO NALAMAN ANG ENTRANCE EXAM RESULT?
:: from friends. and from the net as well.

FIRST CHOICE MO BA ANG UP?
:: yeah. but if it weren't for the Oblation Scholarship i would be studying at Ateneo right now. (how ironic.)

ALAM MO BA ANG UPG SCORE MO?
:: no. but i want to know my score. :)

ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
:: BS Electronics and Communications Engineering. HAHA.

SECOND CHOICE?
:: BS Mathematics.

ANO NAGING COURSE MO?
:: ECE. :|

NAGPLANO KA BANG MAG-SHIFT?
:: yeah. but i decided to stay. or not.

NAKAPAG-DORM KA NA BA?
:: it would be to my greater advantage if i had. >:) but no.

NAKA UNO KA NA BA?
:: >:)

NAGKA-3?
:: not yet. and not wishing for a 3.00.

HIGHEST GRADE:
:: 1.00. >:)

LOWEST:
:: 2.25 [Scrabble + Geog1. don't ask why. :))]; INC [Kas2. yuck.]

WORST EXPERIENCE SA UP:
:: nearly force-dropped because i (more than) maxed out the total number of absences for Geog1. but Ma'am Katigbak didn't drop me. whew.

LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
:: i hope the previous question answered that. :))

ANO'NG ORG MO?
:: UP Circuit. :)

MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
:: *ignores question* >:)

PINANGARAP MO BANG MAG-CUM LAUDE?
:: no. i go for summa cum laude. [and i hope i make it.] :)

KELAN KA NAGTAPOS?
:: not yet.

FAVE PROF (s):
:: Odessa Consorte (Math17)
:: Arthur Gonzales (ES1)
:: Celeste Coscolluela (CW10)
:: Gwenn Parungao (Chem16 lab)
:: Richard Guinto (EEE11 lab/EEE13 lab)
:: Dennis Leyson (Math54)
:: Kristoffer Esquejo (Kas1)

WORST TEACHER (s):
:: Romarie Lorenzo (EEE13 lec)
:: Dedina Lapar (Kas2)

FAVE SUBJECT (s):
:: CW10, Kas1, EEE11/13, Math17/53/54, Chem16

WORST SUBJECT (s):
:: Kas2.

FAVE LANDMARK:
:: Circuit tambayan, Engglib2, "kantunan ni ate C." (as Carl quotes it.)

BUILDING:
:: EEE, Engglib2, Math, AS

PABORITONG KAINAN:
:: Katips, CS, SC, NISMED, Mainlib :)

NOONG ESTUDYANTE KA PA MAGKANO BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
:: i'm still a student, by the way.
:: 7 Ikot/Toki/(from our house to Katipunan)
:: 8.50 Katipunan

LAGI KA BA SA LIB?
:: during the weeks of the semester, to study. for the rest of the sem, just to hang out. :)

NAGPUNTA KA BA SA CLINIC NUNG MINSANG NAGKASAKIT KA?
:: i'd rather die that go there. or not.

MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
:: *toot* :))

BF/GF?
:: *invades question*

MAY BALAK KA BA MAG-MASTERS O MAG-PHD?
:: yeah. although i'm choosing among MS Math, MS Applied Math, and MS EE.

ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING PE MO?
:: scrabble only. for now.

KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
:: G18? i haven't heard much from my blockmates that didn't join Circuit.

NAKAPANOOD KA NA BA NG GRADUATION SA UP?
:: not yet. and i don't want to witness any graduation other than my own.

MEMORIZE MO BA ANG ALMA MATER SONG?
:: yes, thanks to CWTS. :))

MEMBER KA BA NG UP VARSITY TEAM?
:: FAT CHANCE.

NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
:: EXAMS. >:)

ANO'NG AYAW MO SA FINALS WEEK?
:: everything?

DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
:: nope.

ANO'NG GUSTO MO SA UP?
:: everything.

ANO'NG AYAW MO?
:: bitchy profs that give you INCs without you knowing where that came from. :))

MAGANDA BA ID PIC MO?
:: no comment.

MAY GINAWA KA NA BANG ILLEGAL SA LOOB NG CAMPUS?
:: none that i can think of.

toxic.

2008-10-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

sembreak is just around the corner...
BUT I CAN'T FEEL IT COMING.

thanks to four exams, one research paper, and one machine problem. :|

now i feel like i've inhaled massive amounts of the product of the reaction of sodium hypochlorite and hydrochloric acid. [...]
(so what exactly do i feel? haha.)

[eighty-three days and seven hours to go. ><]

sad.

2008-09-30T20:17:00.000+08:00

i wish i had the chance to go back in time.

so i could prevent everything from happening.

but sadly, there's nothing i can do but move on.

even if it hurts to do so.

fibonacci.

2008-09-23T16:29:00.000+08:00

it's up to you to figure out the meaning for that title.

one.

one more late.

my attendance record is ruined beyond repair. so much for a semestral target of no lates and no absences. [fat chance.] i arrived twenty minutes late for our eee33 discussion class. (nothing new.) oh well. at least i fairly understood whatever sir talampas said during the remaining forty minutes of our time.

one.

one more overnight.

for eee33 probset 4b. this thursday at janel's house. haha. chances are high i'm going to the overnight. who's coming? :)

two.

two hamsters.

yay. i went to math class. having cut the two previous meetings. haha. anyway, sir leyson gave a second hamster. it's name, according to my classmates, is "n-delta-t." it's up to you to figure out why the new hamster was given that name.

three.

three requirements.

eee33 problem set, math54 exam, kas1 group paper.
i haven't started anything for either of the three. well, we've finished the problem set during our overnight, but i'm trying to rework on my solutions.

five.

five percent.

yay. my chances of getting a 1.00 for kas1 increased. we had a quiz during kas1 class. and i extremely happy on the score i got for that quiz. considering it is worth five percent of our grade. haha. :) no further comments.

eight.

eight gigabytes.

since i lost my USB flash disk last thursday, i bought a new one. and i wish my new flash disk would last extra long. haha.

one. one. two. three. five. eight.
fibonacci. bow.
:)

secret meme

2008-09-22T14:00:00.000+08:00

haha. :))

1. There are 30 questions.
2. Next to each number, write only the name of the person who fits.
~~3. Answer one question with one name.~~ // whatever.
4. Don't tell the questions to anyone who isn't doing the meme. // i have no intention of telling. they can get the questions from somebody else. haha.

01. melai
02. pisay '07. <3
03. pisay '07 not at UP Diliman. haha. :)
04. fine, me. // seeing that everybody else put my name here.
05. hazel. or adelle.
06. melai >:)
07. erwin. OR NOT.
08. cindy
09. joe and stephen.
10. adelle. *peace*
11. janel
12. won't tell. HAHA! :))
13. inah margaja
14. erwin/rhoda. *peace*
15. luke and kuya pat. :))
16. aj and chuck! :)) [plus ate nine from kas1. >:)][plus kuya potpot! haha.]
17. me. // haha.
18. fiot (corny), isel.
19. oblation scholars [except me]. // or not. :P
20. chet
21. nikko
22. sam borlongan. >:) // "topaz" memories. haay.
23. kuya gelo.
24. ate eby. or lester.
25. kj and melai. :))
26. won't tell. HAHA! :))
27. janel
28. charmy. :P
29. won't tell. HAHA! :))
30. free me! haha. :) or, *rhoda accent* kain us! :)

all the "won't tell. HAHA! :))" refer to the same persons. :)

7 random thoughts

2008-09-22T10:47:00.000+08:00

here are seven things that consume my time and occupy my mind as of this moment.

1. "neil" :)

[sorry for the low-resolution pic.]

anyway, meet "neil," one of the hamsters that sir leyson decided to give away.

denise and i jointly own "neil". although i get to keep "neil" since denise isn't allowed to bring "neil" home.

and oh. i didn't give the name "neil" to the hamster. my classmates gave that name. haha. long story.

2. love of siam :'(

[one of the movie's theatrical posters]
[look at the doll in the middle of the poster. :'(]

one of the movies that we watched during the most recent probset overnight. [it was the first time we watched movies on a probset overnight.]

"love of siam" is a thai romance movie. it isn't an ordinary romance movie, though.

i don't usually watch romance movies, but i love this movie! <3

but the ending was so sad. so sad that we were suddenly not in the mood to finish the probset.

i do hope they make a sequel. i wanna know what happens to them in the future. haay.

3. hermano pule :|

[apolinario de la cruz, more popularly known in philippine history as hermano pule]

at one time during the overnight, we were talking about "isang panaginip na fili." [i go for take two! :)] anyway, our discussion went to juli and hermana bale. and then, i think it was stephen who reminded us that there was another hermana in rizal's novels, and he asked us the name of that hermana.

then i heard one of us say, "hermana pule?"

[actually, that other hermana is hermana penchang. or not.]

funny. thanks to that unintended joke, i suddenly remembered about our group paper for kas1, which, during the overnight, i intended to forget (momentarily) so i could concentrate more on the probset. [sorry groupmates.]

and right now, i'm doing our paper. [while blogging. haha. :))]

4. saw ii x_x

[john kramer. a.k.a. jigsaw.]

during our overnight, we were not contented with watching just "love of siam." we went as far as watching a second movie: saw ii.

i've already watched saw ii, but i still can't afford to watch the movie without looking away from the screen during some freakishly horrible scenes (like the scene with amanda and the needles, and the time when xavier cuts a part of the skin on the back of his neck).

but honestly, setting the bloody and gory aspect aside, i like the movie. i like jigsaw's ingenuity in making traps. [i wish i don't fall into one.]

[oooh. jigsaw has blue eyes. haha. haay. i miss my blue contact lenses.]

5. impedance. :|

[the formula for the impedance of a capacitor.]

of course, how could i forget the purpose of our overnight? gah.

6. uganda :))

[the flag of uganda]

no comment. HAHA.

7. resident evil :)

[jill valentine, from resident evil 3: nemesis]

it's back to basics.

my brother found an emulator of the playstation, and we started downloading roms.

right after i finish everything i have to do, i'm going to play resident evil 3.

and yes, i play resident evil. although "the game contains scenes of explicit violence and gore." :)

breaking the habit

2008-09-17T04:22:00.000+08:00

i'm still waiting for that definitive sign whether i'm going to give this all up or to stick until the end.

and i need to set up my priorities.

and i NEED to break this "tradition" of being late.

i lost that perfect attendance incentive for math54 just because of this "tradition" (and some other personal reasons.) not that i badly need it. (note the word badly. AND I DON'T WANT ANY COMMENTS REGARDING THIS PARAGRAPH.)

so i'm breaking this stupid habit.

but not today.
[it's already 8:00 and i'm still at home blogging.]
maybe tomorrow.

not maybe.
DEFINITELY tomorrow.

><

(random)

2008-09-07T19:32:00.000+08:00

TRAFFIC ADVISORY:

Expect floods along España Blvd. for the days to come...

because UP bags the crown (yet again) for this years's UAAP Cheerdance Competition! :))
back-to-back!
let's go UP!

and to the other schools, well... it's been a close fight. *ahem.ust.ahem*
[but still. ust's unprecedented five-peat is very hard to match. UP still needs three more wins to go.]

but hey, kudos to the all the other schools who participated.

*****

oh well. that's the happy part of this day.
now for the not-so-happy part
*ahem.exam.ahem*

TO HELL WITH THAT EEE33 EXAM!!!

thank God and i have points from the first exam to compensate for this exam.
no further comments.

three more baby steps...

2008-09-01T22:15:00.000+08:00

and our machine problem is done! YAAAY!!! :))

*****

well, at least the coding is two small steps from being complete.
1. (the harder part) debug the program and search any loopholes.
2. put all the required comments and function headers [to comply with sir guinto's specs]

i've been doing some tests lately, and so far, none has resulted to segmentation faults. :))

*****

and there's the last step, which is the hardest/longest of them all:
3. DOCUMENTATION/Design Document

luckily, the documentation need not be submitted on the same day as the code itself. but we'll get started with it asap. [hello isel. :))]

*****

i'm still searching for any stuff/trick that could beautify our program, though. i want this program to act like a normal Linux terminal as much as possible.

call it OC. call me a nerd. so what?

*****

however, i still blame myself for not starting this mp as early as possible. we could have done it even if the deadline was not moved.

oh well. at least i can sleep more peacefully tonight.
or not. :)

weee...

2008-09-01T19:54:00.000+08:00

because of my very awful first ever australian rappelling experience, this day would have sucked big time.

but no...

JUST A FEW MINUTES MADE MY DAY. :))
lalala~

what lies ahead...

2008-08-31T23:36:00.000+08:00

i can't sleep. even if i have a class today. lol.

so i browsed through my old blogs, and i found this post. it's dated may 30, 2007. it was my mom's first death anniversary. by then, it would be a few days before classes start at UP.

and i was still in a disoriented mode.

[i put comments on that post. these are highlighted in red and placed within brackets]

::what lies ahead...::

english tayo ngayon para medyo sosyal. tsaka hindi ganun ka-happy ang mood ng post na 'to. sorry kung barok ang english. pero keep reading. i hope you would not regret spending your time reading a piece of my life's work. [this was one of my first posts to apply a no-tagalog-word rule.]["reading a piece of my life's work." such silly talk. :)]

wow. so much had passed since my last post four months ago. [i do not update my blog much often back then.] back then i was furious at myself for not making it on the director's list for three times in a row, furious that my relationship with my str groupmates was spiraling downward [it's all my fault because i didn't give enough effort in our STR project.][STR == science and technology research. let's just say it's the high school counterpart of ECE198. or not.], and worrying that i would not graduate with honors (although it knew that it was a bluff since i needed an average of 1.8-something to graduate with honors. and the lowest average i attained so far in my pisay life was 1.6-something. and i knew it all along that i would not graduate with highest honors since i need a flat 1.0 average, or the next highest average, to do so.) [haha. define grade conscious.]

but what happened? i made it on the director's list on the last quarter of my pisay stay, with an average of 1.410. [mininum average requirement for director's list is a quarterly average of 1.500.] i was not satisfied at start because i was so close to attaining a higher average, but in the end i was contented that i made it. my relationship with my str groupmates improved. we even won the best poster during the ymsat week. [YMSAT Week == youth math, science and technology week: a week full of activities related to the sciences (duh). in contrast to our Humanities Week. also the week where we present our STR projects for general viewing. held every february.] (and we were so shocked because we all thought it was so ugly. [it had so much typos. :)] luckily they did not post it outside the str unit.) and i graduated with honors - one of more than 50 in batch 2007 to do so. [with honors: GWA not lower than 1.5; with highest honors: GWA not lower than 1.2. rough equivalent of magna cum laude and summa cum laude in up. :)]

after everything in pisay, after chasing my teachers for signatures for the last time as a pisay student and finally being cleared after a month since i returned my books, [clearance week. a grace period to settle all our accountabilities to the school. otherwise, we won't get our report card.] after stepping out of pisay for what may be the last time, what's next?

most of my friends will not be studying in UP. although most of us are going to UP, not all will go to UP diliman. and not all that will go to UP diliman will take BS ECE. and not all that are qualified to get a degree in BS ECE will continue with it. [i already know a few people who left EEE.]

philippine science high school now looks like an Arc de Triomphe that we've all left behind in pursuit of our dreams and ideals. and like the rues and avenues that branch off from the Arc de Triomphe, we had to take separate roads to shape our lives in what we hope to become in the future. [ah ok. i know it doesn't have to be that symbolic. but it makes sense.]

college now seems an entirely new different world to me. a new world that i have to conquer on my own. and i do not know what to do. i'm still crippled by the loss of my mother a year ago. and i'm still trying to stand on my own feet while helping to make my brother learn to stand on his own, without help from anybody. [i'm still under the same struggle.] and since i may no longer see some of batch 2007 again, i feel like i have to restart everything. i feel alone again, [more than a year later: i no longer feel alone. because i'm not alone. i'm just single. ampf. talk about being bitter.] just like four years ago, as i entered pisay, which was by then the greatest risk that i took. [i went through the same disoriented state after elementary, since none of my classmates from grade school made the cut.]

i am so tired of thinking. i feel braindead now. and then i remembered something that sir vlad mentioned to us one time during econ class. [i learned so much from our econ class. not just econ stuff, most of which i have already forgotten by now, but things about life and God. sir vlad would be one of my most unforgettable teachers and mentors.]

"change your paradigm!"

i really never understood the concept of paradigm (nice job for being the first ever Gawad Supremo) [Gawad Supremo: title given to the winners of KKKwiz, a history quiz bee held during our Humanities Week. Gawad Supremos get their names immortalized on bronze (or bronze-looking) plaques. yes, my name is literally placed on the walls of pisay.] other than that you see blue everywhere when you look through blue-tinted glass simply because the glass was tinted with blue. if you look outside of the glass, nothing will be blue.in other words, how things look may seem different if looked at from different perspectives. [i never knew whether my understanding of a paradigm is correct.]

but the hardest thing is, if you are exposed to the blue-tinted glass in a long period of time, there will come a time that you would not realize that you are looking through blue-tinted glass at all. similarly, if you look at things from one perspective too long, you will eventually forget that you can look through the same things with a different point of view.

i have been exposed to pisay life for 4 years, and since then i had been looking at the world from a pisay student's point of view. [so, what is the pisay perspective? that i don't know how to explain.] and now that we are being stripped of this pisay-tinted glass with which i had looked thorugh to view the world for so long, we are blinded by how the world looks without pisay life. [or not. i think i've been too attached to pisay to say this.] so this was where i had been mistaken.

now, i'm trying to look at my future from different points of view. nevetheless, i will never know what might happen in the future. so i cannot say on whether i'll be enjoying my stay in UP diliman at this point. [more than one year since this post: i do enjoy my stay in UP. thanks to UP Circuit, G18, and some of my classmates from other subjects.] because i have not yet gone through it. even if i'm looking through my glasses, through the blue-tinted glass, or through pisay life and experience, i will never know what lies ahead.

only God knows the future. the only thing do is to make sure that we have a clear look, a fresh paradigm at what lies ahead...

*****

i know i sound stupid in that post.

fun thing, i'm in the same disoriented state as i was when i wrote that post.
i don't know.

*****

i'm starting to doubt my decision of staying in EEE.

this isn't a matter of grades. i can still say that to some extent, i'm satisfied the way my academic performance is going.

it's just that i don't know if i still like to stay in EEE. or if i really like ECE, for that matter. sure. i like programming. i (at times) tend to enjoy circuit analysis. [call me a nerd; i won't care]. but i don't feel that ECE's my calling.

sir nat warned me about this. (he was a EEE graduate. and even if he chose to be a math teacher, he still knows how to do transient analysis. but he won't teach me. haha.)

he advised me that if my heart wasn't for EEE, i should shift, before time comes that i'd regret having stayed longer. that was his only advice that i didn't heed because by then i don't see any signs that i should shift away. but now i'm starting to feel the consequences of staying.

so, what does lie ahead if i pursue a career in EEE?

i hope i get to reach a decision before i run out of time, and regret that i made nothing to help myself in this situation.

what lies ahead...

2008-08-31T23:35:00.000+08:00

"change your paradigm!"

only God knows the future. the only thing do is to make sure that we have a clear look, a fresh paradigm at what lies ahead...

i can wait forever...

2008-08-31T21:43:00.000+08:00

I Can Wait Forever
Air Supply

When you say, I miss the things you do
I just want to get back close again to you
But for now, your voice is near enough
How I miss you and I miss your love
And though, all the days that pass me by so slow
All the emptiness inside me flows
All around and theres no way out
Im just thinking so much of you
There was never any doubt

Chorus
I can wait forever
If you say youll be there too
I can wait forever if you will
I know its worth it all, to spend my life alone with you

When it looked as though my life was wrong
You took my love and gave it somewhere to belong
Ill be here, when hope is out of sight
I just wish that I were next to you tonight
And though, Ill be reaching for you even though
Youll be somewhere else, my love will go
Like a bird on its way back home
I could never let you go
And I just want you to know

Chorus
I can wait forever
If you say youll be there too
I can wait forever if you will
I know its worth it all, to spend my life alone with you
(repeat chorus 3 times)

*****

i used to love that song.
but now i feel bitter every time i hear that song.

it's the first song that i heard on the day i knew we can't be together.
and the lyrics hit me hard as hell.

from the things that happened lately...
it got me thinking...
when will it be my turn?

but then, it should have been my turn long ago.
but i was too stupid to let go of that chance.
back when i almost had it.
argh.

they say, only time can tell.
yes. i can wait forever.
but i'm already tired of waiting forever.

i wish i had the courage to make the move.
and risk everything.
just for her.

i miss her so much. :'(
if only she knew...

more random thoughts (part 2)

2008-08-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

since i'm not yet sleepy, and that eee13 exam still has its hangover, and i'm not yet in the mood to continue our mp, here are more random thoughts.

*****

RANDOM 1

fuck that eee13 exam.

that exam really, really proved how worthless our lec instructor is. [her name won't be mentioned for confidential reasons.] i'm positively sure there were some items that weren't in the slides and i'm positively sure they weren't even mentioned during discussion at all. [yes, i still listen to ma'am **** during class. even though she tends to repeat every phrase she says even though she tends to repeat every phrase she says. :))]

*****

RANDOM 2

i didn't know this at first...

but our eee13 lec instructor is a member (a MODERATOR, in fact) of acad div's yahoo group. haha.

but i know she's a circuit alumni. i even had her signature on my sigsheet back when i was an app.

luckily i haven't mentioned anything about eee13 on the ygroup. or i'd be dead. >.<

*****

RANDOM 3

only two commands more, and eee13 mp1 is finished. the code, i mean. there's still the documentation. [go isel~]

thank heavens sir extended the deadline of the mp to wednesday. and of course, a special thanks to cielo for making that poll and inspiring sir to consider moving the deadline.

*****

RANDOM 4

this isn't eee13-related. well, not directly.

after our eee13 exam, rhoda, chet, melai and i ate at jollibee philcoa. then we had a mini intercourse (as melai puts it) until 11. haha.

on the way home, i rode a jeep. and the driver is so bitchy. i paid twenty pesos to him. when i was near my stop, i asked for my change.

"anong bente ka dyan? di ka pa nga nagbabayad eh."

argh.

since i had no time (and i'm not in the mood to argue back), i just gave him another twenty-peso bill. this time, he gave my change. but still.

28.50 pesos just for a jeepney ride that wasn't even longer than four kilometers.

i'm not ranting about the 20 pesos that i lost. it's just that i can't believe that there are people who really are that contorted (and that desperate) for money to the point that they exploit other people just for their gain.

let karma do its job on him.

*****

just a few random things...

2008-08-27T21:14:00.000+08:00

...before i resume my mp work.

*****

RANDOM 1

i'm already tired of looking at C source codes.

sure, i love programming. but i hate C.

i miss writing programs in Java. because i find it easier. and i don't need to use malloc(size_t size);

*****

RANDOM 2

following erwin's post, i looked up the definition of my name on urbandictionary.com.

NEIL: Neil means; naked or one who is with out clothes. We also encourage the use of “Neil” as and expression of extreme emotion!! To be shouted at inappropriate times to release stress.

(While you are in an exam)
Shouting out; NEIL! so what am i, the oblation? fine. try to shout out my name during an exam.. and all the answers you're looking for would hit you headfirst. haha.

but there is another definition for neil which i find very disturbing.

an extremely gay dude that, for some reason, loves squirrels and koalas. he thinks hes cool but the problem is that he cant think....and hes not cool, hes just very very gay. all-in-all, a neil is a gay person that likes cock, squirrels, and koalas fyi, i haven't seen live squirrels and koalas to begin with.

MIRANDA: school girl by day, stripper by night very funny. :)) no further comments.

*****

RANDOM 3

today is 28 august 2008. so i'm exactly 16 2/3 years old today.

[which also makes me 16 2/3 years single. ampf. enough with the bitter talk.]

*****

RANDOM 4

i haven't started writing my nth kas1 reaction paper. (where n approaches positive infinity.)

well, the reaction paper was about a movie we were required to watch last tuesday afternoon.

the title of the movie was "Anak Dalita," starring rosa rosal (if any of you know her.) one thing's certain: the movie is OLD. because rosa rosal looks very young in that movie.

*****

i'm sleepy. so it's back to mp work before sleep consumes me entirely.

hell week...

2008-08-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

the second eee 13 exam will be on this coming saturday. the machine problem is due the day before.

so i really need time to study (and to finish the MP). so i really need to maximize my break times in favor of eee13 (and eee33, if ever the next part of problem set 3 comes out.)

*****

the following was stolen from our kas1 'groups'. apparently this week is "Linggo ng Kasaysayan," a week of activities from the kas dept.

*****

Agosto 26 Martes
7:30-8:20AM Pagtatanim ng Puno (Optional) UP Lagoon
2:30 PM Film Showing "Anak Dalita" (Required P70 per ticket) UP Cine Adarna
5:30 PM Film Showing "Anak Dalita" (Required P70 per ticket) UP Cine Adarna

Agosto 27 Miyerkules
1-5PM Kwentuhan sa Diliman (Required for WFW4 & WFY1) CM Recto Hall

Agosto 28 Huwebes
1-5PM UP as Heritage (Required for THX3 & THY2) CM Recto Hall

Agosto 29 Biyernes
2-5PM Graduate Students Paper Presentation (Required for WFW4 & WFY1) CM Recto Hall

those highlighted in red are the ones i'm concerned with.

*****

i don't know how or why, but my kas1 prof knows that i have a blog. i just don't know whether he refers to this blog, or to the one on blogspot, which is just an inexact mirror of this blog, since i repost some of my posts here to that blog.

so i'll have to be more cautious making any comment.

*****

well, one thing's for sure. this week, kas1 will take up all my free time on tuesday and thursday. oh well.

i hope i get to attend the tree-planting activity because witnessing that activity is bonus for our first exam (which i feel i've flunked, if not passed with a low grade. seriously. so i really need bonus points.)

and of course, i'm going to watch that film on the 2:30 run, since UP Circuit has a general assembly at 5:30.

*****

but i'm not implying that kas1 gets in the way of my majors. i can cope with it. [or not. :)]

*****

oh well.

the last week of august is another hell week for me. my third hell week in a row, to be precise. >.<

back to mp mode. >.<

i'm supposed to be doing something else right now...

2008-08-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

but no. i'm blogging again.

[ ] eee13 me4
[ ] eee13 mp1
[ ] eee33 probset 3.1
[ ] kas1 field trip reflection paper

i must finish everything by tonight.

but i haven't finished anything yet.
i'm not even halfway done with each of those requirements.

and i can't believe i'm cramming again.
so much for a target of zero cramming rate for this sem.

can't september come any faster?

*****

i take back what i wrote.
i must finish at least the probset and the reflection paper by tonight.
gah. >.<

oh well. back to work.

i'll never get over hemophobia...

2008-08-18T07:22:00.000+08:00

(a piece of advice: finish whatever you're eating before you read on.)

*****

i've already been through a lot of experiences with blood.

some of these were small things, like being taken a sample of blood from you twice on the same day, to more traumatic ones like that cat at the main lib.

and there was this one incident when i was still in high school. i was an incoming junior back then. i was on the way to pisay.

i was riding a jeep. then, there was this heavy traffic. on the other side of the road, i saw a jeep being towed away. its front was heavily damaged.

and of course, the only way the front of a vehicle could be heavily damaged is if it had been involved in an accident. maybe it smashed into something, like a tree, a post,

or another vehicle.

and a few meters away i knew what happened.

on the road was a motorcycle, also heavily damaged. and bent at an odd angle. (probably, the motorcycle was overtaking some other vehicle when it collided head on with the jeep on the opposite lane.)

and right beside it was a man, lying face down on the ground.

and his head was swimming in blood.

from what it looked like, the vehicular accident had just occurred. because we had already gotten a few meters away from the scene when an ambulance came and brought the body.

to date this is one of my most traumatic experiences with blood.

*****

so why am i writing about it today, if it had been years since that incident? i mean, i should be somewhat over with that, right?

well, a similar experience occurred just last night.

i was on the way home from the kas1 field trip.

and just like the previous incident that i related, i was riding a jeep. since i was tired from the field trip, i tried to sleep on the jeep. while i was sleeping, i was suddenly awakened because of a loud blowing of horns.

and just about the same time, i heard a loud crash.

the people beside me started screaming and gasping. i looked out to the side of the jeep, and i couldn't believe what i saw.

the jeep i was on had just collided with a motorcycle.

(correct me if i'm wrong, but i'm not a physics expert) the collision was inelastic, and from the law of conservation of momentum, the jeep couldn't stop immediately, so the motorcycle was dragged along by a few meters.

well, probably because of fright and shock, or to avoid being associated with the incident, all of us got off the jeep and walked as far as possible from the scene.

i couldn't see where the motorcycle driver was. he wasn't under the jeep (luckily, or else i'd really faint if i saw a body under the jeep.) but i saw large spots of blood near the jeep and a few meters from the site (probably at the exact place of impact.)

i got on another jeep as fast as possible. and as i was leaving the site, i got a look from at the jeep's front, and it really looked like the jeep i saw being towed away. (in the previous incident i related.)

*****

i don't want another traumatic experience. i'm already doing my best to remove this phobia, but no. more traumatic experiences just keep pn coming. and they somehow keep getting worse.

so this is why i write about my traumatic experiences. ironically, doing this makes me forget them. and move on.

the kas1 field trip was...

2008-08-18T06:18:00.000+08:00

happy tree friends...

2008-08-13T16:49:00.000+08:00

isn't happy at all!

*****

damn all of you who persuaded me to watch those clips.

i barely got over from that ill-fated cat at the main lib... and now i'm seeing scenes of violence, gore, death,..

and blood.

gah. i hate (seeing, smelling, etc.) blood. even if the blood i see is fake. or from a cartoon, for that matter.

*****

damn.

the exams are over...

2008-08-11T19:42:00.000+08:00

but i'll remain haggard until the last day of august.

*****

i may not yet be a math teacher, but i'm checking papers. i'm doing a favor for sir nat, so right now i'm checking four assignments of roughly 120 students.

yes. four.

i'm supposed to email the scores of the exam tonight, but i'm not halfway done. but sir nat understands that. he knew i had a eee33 exam last sunday, and the math54 midterms just this afternoon. [besides, he's a eee grad, so he knows how eee33 (or whatever it counterpart was back then) is not-so-easy.]

the hard thing in checking math papers is, it's not as simple as checking a multiple choice exam. one thing's for sure - you have to read and understand the solution so you would be sure if he truly got the correct answer. [and sir nat won't give me an answer key so i need to solve the problems to find the correct answer.]

and now i understand why the first exam scores for eee33 have not yet been released. [or maybe they're just too lazy, or too busy, to check our papers at once.]

and being bitchy, i really wrote nasty comments on the papers that i checked. [luckily since they're not my students, they won't know me. :))] but i didn't comment on their handwriting. (less than five, out of a hundred and twenty, passed my standards) some of the solutions were just vague, as if their final answers jumped out of nowhere.

*****

all my sundays of august (except august 31) aren't rest days.

next sunday, i'm going to mt. banahaw for a field trip for kas1.

that was a last-minute decision. actually, i didn't plan to join the field trip since i have a 6-day schedule, and sunday's my only rest day. i already passed a reaction paper that we were supposed to write if we won't join the field trip.

but since GEs with field trips are not common, and i don't (and can't) go to banahaw on a regular basis, and just for the sake of experiencing and learning something new, i decided to join the field trip.

and there's this cwts swimming on august 24. i didn't go to any of the two previous swimming classes for cwts (because i was sick on the first swimming class, and the second one's on just last sunday. although our swimming class was on morning and the eee33 exam was on the afternoon, i haven't studied much for eee33 back then so i had to cut that cwts.)

and even though we had swimming as pe one quarter every year in high school, i still don't know how to swim. (although i know how to float) so i think i'll flunk the practicals. or at least i'll get a low grade. haha.

*****

and there's this MP.

i still haven't tried doing the MP (sorry isel :P) i forgot how to create makefiles, and i'm still thinking of a general plan on how to tackle the MP.

how great. less than three weeks to go before the deadline.

*****

the next eee13 exam would be on the last saturday of august.

and, if i'm not mistaken, there's supposedly another eee33 exam this august. but chances are large this would be moved by a week or two. however, i have a bad feeling it would be on another sunday. happy me.

and, according to my prof, chances are high that our first kas1 long exam would fall on the saturday before the eee13 exam. ewww. [well at least his kas1 is objective, and i don't find it hard to memorize facts. luckily, dates don't appear in his exams.]

i also have another bad feeling that the next math54 exam and the next eee34 practical exam would fall on august. haaay.

*****

oh well. i am sooo lucky. >.<

*****

i need a rest. or an intercourse (ckt07 bonding, for those who would take that word literally). or a good novel. or a good movie. or lots of food.

whatever. i need something to lower my stress level. gah. >.<

*****

oops. i forgot. we have no classes on august 18 and 19 (and 25? not sure.) woot. at least i get to have rest days in august.

poor cat...

2008-08-09T21:19:00.000+08:00

[melai, isel, and aj: sorry, i just had to blog this. it's the only way i think i'll ever forget (and get over from) what happened.]

*****

a piece of advice: if you are eating something while reading this, it's best to finish whatever you're eating before you continue reading.

*****

what hurts me a lot is when i see someone (i'm emotionally attached to) suffer, and i can't do anything but watch him in vain.

here's the setting. after our eee13 lab, melai, isel, aj and i decided to eat pancit canton by the main lib. it's one of our usual habits (and this was the reason why we bought 20 packs of chili-mansi pancit canton for the overnight at rhoda's. but we never managed to eat them. haha.)

*****

well, there was this cat, which, in many respects, is like tangee, that kitten who used to roam around the tambayan.

anyway, this kitten was on the ground, asleep.

while we were waiting for our pancit canton, we noticed that there were so many ants near the cat. from what it looked like, the cat was distracted by these ants, so it moved to the nearby road and resumed its nap.

*****

then, while we were eating, somebody tried to park his car right on the spot where the cat was sleeping. he didn't notice the cat, so he actually...

so he actually ran over the cat.

well, the cat was still alive. i could still remember the look on its face as it tried to get out from under the wheel.

we were frantically shouting, because that's all we could do. we couldn't do anything. of course, we can't lift the car. and we can't pull the cat out or else it would die.

*****

but the driver apparently noticed something was wrong, based from our reactions. (hello. what would you do if you were about to park a car, then people eating calmly in a corner would all of the sudden scream, cover their eyes and look away? you would obviously sense that something's not right.)

so he pulled out his car.

and while he was doing so, the cat's insides exploded. like a balloon that's been sat on. or ran over for that matter.

we were so horrified that from the moment we saw the cat being run over, we tried to move to another place so we won't see the cat writhe in pain.

but we were too late. too slow. or rather, the events were too quick.

as we were moving to another bench, i saw the cat's final, fatal horrifying moments. even that moment when the cat exploded.

*****

and that asshole just parked his car on another spot. he didn't care at all about the cat. and just moments after, he left. we didn't know where the hell we went.

*****

i couldn't take that incident off my mind. probably i was emotionally attached to that cat. like i said, the cat was in many respects similar to tangee, and i liked tangee. i even used to play with it back then when it used to roam around the tambayan.

so from the moment i first saw the cat i became attached to it.

or probably because i've witnessed the whole event. from the moment the cat was squished under the wheel to the time its insides burst.

*****

this isn't a scene vividly crafted from one's imagination. it's real.

and now i can't sleep because of this. i can't concentrate on what i'm studying because i keep on recalling that incident.

so i had to write this because this is the only way i'd ever move on.

i still feel guilty that i didn't do anything to alleviate the cat's suffering during that last few seconds of its life. i still feel guilty because we all felt the instinct to look away, to move away, while the cat was in pain.

i want to light up a candle for that poor cat.

*****

i'm not silly. it's just that i'm too (emotionally) involved to simply let this go and move on as if nothing happened.

what a day.

2008-08-06T17:00:00.000+08:00

tomorrow (so this thursday), i have a report for kas1, and so my groupmates and i spent tuesday night at the AS lobby just trying to patch things up. i arrived at home by 10 pm.

and by then i barely started my 33 probset. but since i was so tired when i got home, i decided to have a short nap. i'll wake up by 11 pm, then do the problem set until 3 in the morning.

but no. i overslept. happy me.

*****

i woke up by 4 am, and since i have to leave by 7.30 so i would make it to eee on time (or even earlier), i had roughly three hours to finish the probset. it should be a piece of cake, since all i had to do was rewrite my answers.

but thanks to my OC instinct that i just don't know how to control, by 7 am only half of the probset was done. so the rest of the probset was super crammed. and although i finished majority of the probset, i left home by 8 am.

and since never in history had my travel time been 30 minutes or less, i'm guaranteed to arrive beyond 8.30. which meant i couldn't submit my probset. yay.

i arrived at eee by 8.45. luckily, the dept (still) accepted my (late) probset. so my efforts weren't laid to waste after all. whew.

for once, i wasn't too late for 33. :)

*****

math54 was a blur. i was so sleepy during that time that i actually fell asleep. haha. but not too long. because i still had track of what lesson sir leyson was discussing at that time.

*****

and, as always, i don't know how to waste my next 3 hours. [every tuesday, wednesday, and friday, i have a break from 1 to 4. gah. what an ugly schedule.] so i decided to attend a lecture on eee21. it was really my first time to seat-in on another class, so i was (actually) excited to listen to ma'am tata. :)

but ma'am tata walked out of the vlc. AND I SWEAR IT WASN'T MY FAULT. damn you, chuck.

before ma'am tata started her (supposed) lecture, she clarified something about their probset. and then she told the class to keep their probset materials. and she started blabbing and so about the lecture, then suddenly she noticed that one of the students at front didn't keep his probset materials. ma'am tata was so furious she stormed out of the classroom.

i'm sooo never going to seat-in on any other class again. haha.

*****

by 4 pm, my last (and most boring) class every wednesday is eee13. i found it better not to listen to ma'am roma because she keeps on repeating what she says she keeps on repeating what she says (pun intended. :)) so i borrowed melai's laptop and played hangaroo and text twist while ma'am roma kept on blabbing kept on blabbing some stuff about pipes and file i/o [nosebleed].

then, she suddenly released the results of our first exam.

i wouldn't comment on my score because i'm already contented with it.

*****

oh well. what a day.

and i'm sure this day is far from over because i still have work to do for kas1. this group report is like kas2 all over again.

because we have to provide handouts, etc. just like in kas2.

but i'm perfectly happy with the way things are going in kas1. at least the grades are more transparent (so i would really know if i was about to get a grade of INC.), and so far my standing after two quizzes and one reaction paper (for a total of 15% of my grade) is 1.00. :))

oh yeah. i really hope kas1 becomes my first ge with a final grade of 1.00. :)

uno

2008-07-24T20:00:00.000+08:00

in a previous post i mentioned two of sir leyson's quotable quotes:

"pwede naman kayong mag-scratch kapag di nyo ako masabayan..."
"dapat ngayon, kapag nakita nyo ung integrand, alam nyo na agad ang technique na gagamitin..."

well, just this afternoon he came up with another quotable quote. :))

but before that, a little background info..

sir leyson takes attendance sheets to a higher level. it's not the usual write-your-signature-on-the-box-provided attendance sheet like the ones used in eee33. i call it the write-your-answer-on-the-box-provided attendance sheet. *whoa.* everyday, there is a different question to answer, and your answer will serve as proof that you were present for that day.

cool, isn't it? :)

yesterday, the question was from the (in)famous eng'g angas shirt: "so what kung uno ka, eng'g ka ba?"

it so happened that a considerable part of the class is from eng'g (most of those who sit on the first two rows are from eee to begin with.) so, sir leyson commented on that question this afternoon, and...

*poof!*

leyson quotable quote #3.

"so what kung eng'g ka? mauuno mo ba ako?"

haha. how bitchy.

this is by far my favorite leyson quote. :))

because if ever i get to teach in UP in the future /* fat chance! :P */ i can borrow this quote. hahaha!!! :))

gah.

2008-07-13T06:51:00.000+08:00

a little more than two hours left before the eee33 exam... yes, we're having this effing exam on a sunday.

and my brain's overloading. haha.

i'm already sick of thevenizing, superposing, source transforming, delta-to-wyeing (and vice versa), and all those crappy methods and theorems related to circuit analysis.

oh well... let's get this over with.

math comic strips

2008-07-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

found these over the internet.

this is what some nerds read when bored.

(the last strip was my personal favorite. sooo math53. can't find anything more related to math54, though. sigh.)

random post

2008-06-25T15:58:00.000+08:00

i'm bored, so i've been looking at the list of unvalidated students (posted at the CRS website.

and i found sir tiglao's [EEE11 lec] student number!

it's 198833544. :))

apparently he's taking MS EE, and he hasn't finished it yet.

[i wonder what lapar's student number had been. assuming she took up BA History here in UP...]

survey (again)

2008-06-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

yes, another survey stolen from so many.

FINISH THE SENTENCE!
1. I never thought I would: still be an oble. (i'll never get over kas 2 because it had taught me a very important lesson about priorities. and glossaries.)
2. For my next birthday, I want: to go on a tour around the world. haha!
3. I wish my friends would stop: considering me as some rich person. (because i'm not that rich.)
4. I'm really nervous about: EEE 34 and CWTS.
5. I want to tell: her that i love her so much. :))
6. One of my exes needs to learn how: to come into being. (gosh. 16 years of being single...)
7. We shouldn't have homeworks because: a student's intention to study must come from his own will, and not from being forced to do homework.
8. I'm horrible at: dancing. (oh well.)
9. The last concert I was at: rakestra. (wow. that was months ago.)
10. I used to believe: that dwarfs exist and have the power to possess you. (imagine this ex-belief from someone trained to think logically and scientifically.)
11. My favorite flower is: dahlia. haha! (weh.)
12. The worst thing: that i predict would happen to me is to be run over by a pink car, and my blood is flowing everywhere. (gah. that gave me the creeps.)
13. You know, I really think: period. that's why i'm in UP. haha! :))
14. God is: the electromotive force that moves me away from temptations of the flesh. (gah. how EEE-ish.)
15. The world's biggest problem is: the rapidly degrading morals of society.
16. Who cares about: her? only i do. :))
17. I hate my hair when: it's so short. (just like now. i tend to look like a nerd just because of it.)
18. I like my showers to be: cold and near freezing. :)
19. I usually: get late for class. but that's about to change. especially this sem.
20. I hate Mondays because: it's the unluckiest day ever. (whether it be a psychological effect or not.)

OPINION!
1. What's your opinion? yes! (huh?)
2. George Bush? war freak.
3. Gay marriage? why not?
4. Hillary Clinton running for president? who cares.
5. Netspeak? no comment.
6. Kids getting murdered because of MySpace? is that even possible?
7. Religion? Roman Catholic.
8. The theory of evolution? inadequate.
9. Bullying? boo!
10. Homework? pain-in-the-neck for GC people.
11. Nude beaches? ewww.
12. Animal rights? are just there.
13. Sex before marriage? marriage first.
14. Global warming? should be given concern before it's too late.
15. Teen pregnancy? not good.
16. Marijuana legalization? no way!
17. Drunk driving? dangerous...
18. Smoking? bad. especially for those who inhale the second-hand smoke.
19. Being able to choose your baby's hair color, eye color, etc.? i'll let NATURAL genetics do the work.

NUMBER!
1. Of people you kissed this year: n, where n approaches infinity. :)
2. Of cellphones you owned: six.
3. Of days until your birthday? 190.
4. Of complete meals you ate today: two.
5. Of best friends you have: cannot be counted. :)
6. Of instruments you play: one. the piano.
7. Of items of clothing you're wearing: three (eyeglasses not included.)
8. Of times you failed a subject: zero. hopefully it would stay that way forever.
9. Of tasks you have to complete today? zero. (i completed everything before i stole this survey.)
10. Of names you go by: 5 or 6.

FAVORITE!
1. Place to sit in class: basically anywhere, depending on who i sit with.
2. Kind of chocolate: ferrero rocher! :))
3. Animal to have as a pet: a worm. :)
4. Type of car: pink! i'm in love with pink cars.
5. Place to buy shoes: anywhere (as long as the shoes aren't imitations.)
6. School you've went to so far: pisay diliman (up diliman comes very close.)
7. Sibling of yours: what choice do i have? i have only one sibling.
8. Icecream topping: chocolate sprinkles or strawberry bits.
9. Personality aspect of one of your friends: sense of humor.
10. Pair of socks you own: white, below-the-ankles.

X MARKS THE SPOT!
[ ] I've crimpled my hair before.
[x] I've said "I love you" and meant it.
[ ] I've gotten flowers from a guy before
[x] I've been to the circus
[ ] I've kissed a stranger and regretted it
[ ] I've talked to someone I met on the internet who was more than three years older than me
[ ] I've thrown up in a movie theater
[ ] I've said a racist joke infront of a member of that race
[ ] I'm currently chatting with someone I fancy. // no way i fancy the one i'm currently chatting with!
[ ] I hate being called "hot".
[x] I am overly romantic // haha.:))

badtrip

2008-06-20T16:18:00.000+08:00

"pwede naman kayong mag-scratch kapag di nyo ako masabayan..."

"dapat ngayon, kapag nakita nyo ung integrand, alam nyo na agad ang technique na gagamitin..."

some of sir leyson's quotes of the day.

i'm still disappointed in him. i mean, not everyone is smart enough to understand the topic immediately (which, by the way, is improper integrals). not everyone is as good in math as he is.

many of us might have laughed when he mentioned those quotes, but that doesn't mean that nobody was insulted. honestly, i took that as an insult. sure, i may have above average math skills, but for someone who studies seriously only for his efforts to be ignored, those words were insulting.

well, for now, the only good thing i find in him is his handwriting (which passed my standards), but nothing more.

but i'm not going to let him hamper my love for math (so why am i still in ece?), nor my urge to get a final grade of 1.00 for every math subject i'm going to take. haha.

June 18, 2008 [random post]

2008-06-18T20:34:00.000+08:00

[BABALA: kung ayaw mo magbasa ng emo stuff, then don't read this post at all.]

i'm never gonna forget june 18, 2008. not because UP just turned a hundred years old. (although it may count as a reason for me to remember yesterday.)

and up to now, i can't forget that moment. and i'll never get over it.

because the chances that that moment would happen again is slim. more than that, it just awakens me more to the reality that it just wouldn't work out. but at least i felt happy because we saw each other again.

(sorry kung mukhang senseless itong sinulat ko. kasi onti lang naman talaga ang makaka-relate dito. wala lang. i just felt the urge to post this.

gah. i feel disoriented. hanggang ngayon ay tulala pa rin ako. haha.)

week one.

2008-06-13T19:05:00.000+08:00

i'm not yet supposed to write this kasi naman di pa tapos ang unang linggo ng classes ko, dahil may pasok pa ako bukas. at di dapat ako nasa harap ng pc kasi may gabundok pa ako ng notes na irerewrite. :)) anyhow, eto ang aking evaluation sa first week of classes...

attendance. in terms of attendance, perfect pa so far. (achievement!) yup, walang late, walang absent. di katulad nung previous two sems na first meeting pa lang late na. hehe. (at di katulad nung 2nd sem last year na first week pa lang may na-cut na ako. pero valid excuse ko dun. nasa our ako nun, nagpapa-assess. but still.)

hopefully ma-maintain ko ang perfect attendance lalo na't may subjects ako ngayon na may incentive para sa perfect attendance (at para na rin wala akong problemahin kapag may subject akong sagad na ang absent.)

eee 13. well, sa lec pa lang kami nagmeet, at bukas pa ang lab, kaya i cannot say for now kung magiging maayos ang eee13 ko. pero for the lec part, medyo kwela naman si ma'am roma... so sana naman mas may gana akong makinig sa kanya compared nung kay tiggy. (ilang beses nga ba ako nakinig sa lecs ni tiggy?)

eee33. ano nga ba talaga ang first name ni sir solis? well, habang di ko pa alam, lolit muna tawag namin sa kanya. i love his teaching technique. kasi parang naging philo na ung lec eh. talagang mapapaisip ka kasi ang hilig niyang magbigay ng mga hypothetical questions (at feeling ko walang real nullator at norator. theoretical elements lang ata sila.)

pero sana naman hindi ganun kabagal ang pace ng discussion. kasi parang ang dami ng pag-aaralan sa 33 eh. kami ang madadale pagdating ng exam.

as for the disc part, di ko alam kung bakit, pero parang sir talampas reminds me of sir mardan (nung math 6, at hindi nung geom.) haha. from the way na ihandle nya kami sa class, i doubt mabobore ako dun.

eee34. excited na ako maghawak ng stuff! next week may experiment na kami. kaya musta naman. although 1 unit lang siya, super important daw ng role ng 34 sa labs in the sems to come (assuming umabot ako dun. >.<) pero sana nga.

and honestly, medyo kinakabahan ako sa subject na ito kasi dito ako may pinakamaliit na kumpiyansang makakuha ng uno. (yes, less confident ako dito compared to math54 or even eee33. ewan ko kung bakit.)

kas1. and super enjoy ako sa kas1 ko. although hindi pa kami nagsisimulang magdiscuss ng lesson mismo, kwela ang prof ko (ang pangalan nga pala, by the way, is kristoffer esquejo). as in. (may previous post ako tungkol sa kanya.)

kas1 na siguro ang GE na pinaka-love ko. (bukod sa cw10. wala na akong ibang nagustuhang GE. lalo na ang kas2. :)) )

math 54. gets ko pa naman so far ang math 54. kaso nga lang ayoko kay leyson. (kahit na-meet niya ang super taas na standards ko sa handwriting) nagtatawag sa klase, at kapag pinapunta sa board bawal magdala ng papel. kaya pag natawag ka tapos di mo pa alam ung solution sa problem na pinapagawa sa 'yo, patay ka.

sana nga ma-conquer ko rin ang math na ito. kasi feeling ko mahirap makakuha ng uno kay leyson.

(wala pang cwts kasi sa monday pa ang sched ko nun.)

non-acad stuff. oo na. pangit buhok ko. :)) magpakalbo kaya ako para umayos ito. kaso nga lang magpapa-id pa ako eh. parang cute kasi nung centennial id.

at dumugo ilong ko kanina nang mag-impose ng english-speaking zone si melai kanina. *conyo accent* and since i'm not that fluent in english, it's like hard to comprehend what they were communicating earlier. *nosebleed*. ah basta.

at musta naman ang countdown clock sa eng'g. nagcountdown na sila para centennial ng up next next year. di naman siguro sila excited. (729 days,... to go.)

at friday the 13th pala ngayon. kaya pala super tanga mode ako kanina. pero di ako minalas. (kasi twing monday the 13th ako super minamalas. hehe.)

namugad rin ang pisay08 sa up! (eh saan pa ba mamumugad ang pisay kung hindi sa up?) ang dami kong nakitang kilala ko. by name. by face. personally. best friends at busmate namin ni *ehem*. ung nabigyan ng pisay diploma kahit may singko (ayon sa rumors na nakuha ko. di ko pa nakoconfirm kung siya nga un.) ah basta. ang dami nila.

pero wala namang hottie na freshie. :)) i guess sa 09 na lang ako maghahanap. (di pa naman ako pedo sa 09 kasi halos ka-edad ko sila. maraming 08 ang mas matanda sa akin eh.)

OVERALL: maganda ang unang linggo ng sem na ito para sa akin. and hopefully maging maganda ang buong sem ko. i dunno why, pero parang feel ko aabot ako sa super taas na gwa ngayong sem. (higher than last sem's gwa, hopefully.) i have to admit, bumabalik na ung ultimate pagka-gc ko na nung high school ko huling naranasan.

LSS.

2008-06-10T20:20:00.000+08:00

ok. i'm not a fan of cueshe (in fact, ayoko talaga sa cueshe) pero LSS agad ako nung first time ko ito marinig. and by then hindi ko pa alam yung title, neither do i know na cueshe pala kumanta nito.

owel. ito lang siguro ang katangi-tanging kanta ng cueshe na ma-LSS ako.

at kaya rin siguro ako na-LSS sa kantang ito kasi natatamaan ako. super. T_T

Bring Me Down (BMD) || Cueshe

All alone tonight
Waiting for the sun to shine
Starting all over again.,
I'm breaking away
Looking on the other way
Where life is much better...

Chorus:
Will I ever let you bring me down
Now it's over, I'm finally moving on
I won't let you, Let you bring me down

I've finally seen the light
Thought the world is larger than life
It's all I wish for thinking
And taking a fly on a brighter side
Cause life just don't come easy...

*Repeat Chorus*

kas1 [random post]

2008-06-10T19:20:00.000+08:00

grabe talaga kas1 ko. super unforgettable ung nangyari kanina. musta naman nung tinawag kami isa-isa nung prof namin para i-check kung nasa form5 namin ang kas1.

PROF: *looks at form5* so oblation scholar ka pala?
NEIL: *pabulong* opo.
P: tapos ayaw mong ipaalam sa lahat na oblation scholar ka?
N: *no comment*
P: taga-Pisay ka ba?
N: *nods*

agad akong bumalik sa upuan ko, pero feeling ko talaga ang daming nakatingin sa akin nun kasi pasigaw niyang sinabi na oble ako. wtf. pano naman niya na-deduce na baka taga-pisay ako? eh di naman lahat ng oble galing sa pisay ah.

haay. super weird ang kas1 ko. it turned out na ang daming pisay sa class: iba't ibang campuses pa! (ang wala lang ang pisay-ilocos at davao.) ang dami ring freshies sa class namin: mga kalahati siguro. wala nga lang hottie.

pero i have the feeling i'm going to like kas 1. MORE THAN KAS 2. :))

at least may kilala ako sa class na yun. classmate ko pala si ron (ng g18) eh. kaya nung nag-momonologue ung prof kung bakit ang dami raw ng di kumukuha ng kas1 dahil sa trauma mula sa kas2, NAPANGITI NA LANG KAMI. haha!

9:00

2008-06-10T03:30:00.000+08:00

9:00 na ang first class ko para sa sem na ito [EEE 33 disc]...

PERO ANDITO PA AKO SA HARAPAN NG AKING PC. (duh.)

haay. malelate siguro ako. >.<

what a way to start the sem. sabi ko pa naman sa sarili ko wala na akong late or absent ever. (asa.) oh well. pero seriously, sana naman maging maayos ang sem na ito. :))

[as if may class na agad sa unang araw. eee pa. lol.]

CRS == bad.

2008-05-28T06:11:00.000+08:00

Time	Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday	Saturday
08:30 AM - 09:00 AM			EEE 33 WFRT1		EEE 33 WFRT1
09:00 AM - 10:00 AM	CWTS 1 -Engg MMME A	EEE 33 WFRT1	EEE 33 WFRT1		EEE 33 WFRT1
10:00 AM - 12:00 PM	CWTS 1 -Engg MMME A
12:00 PM - 01:00 PM
01:00 PM - 04:00 PM					EEE 34 FWX	EEE 13 WLMS2
04:00 PM - 05:30 PM		Kas 1 THY2	EEE 13 WLMS2	Kas 1 THY2
05:30 PM - 06:00 PM			EEE 13 WLMS2

badtrip talaga ang CRS. 11 units lang nakuha ko! wala pa akong PE, kulang ako ng isang GE, and worst of all, WALA PA AKONG MATH 54!

kelangan ko tuloy mag-prerog para lang makakuha ng mga kulang na subjects. at ang pangit ng sched ko ngayong sem. (tingnan nyo sa taas.) linggo lang break ko. monday to saturday may klase ako. (btw, wala pa akong sem na wala akong pasok tuwing sabado.)

and worse, kung hindi malagyan ng PE, isa pang GE, at ng Math 54, ang laki ng butal ko sa sched. kagaya ng sa thursday na iisa lang ang klase ko, at tuesday at wednesday na may 6-hr gap sa pagitan ng subjects ko.

haay. bakit ba ang malas ko sa CRS?

tres (another survey)

2008-03-29T17:58:00.000+08:00

Three Things (stolen from many)

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
// neil (duh), niw (by some pisay friends, including her), oble (by my chem classmates, dahil nalaman nilang oble ako...)

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
// December 28, 1991 (duh), March 27, 2007 (grad namin), May 30, 2006 (day na namatay mom ko...)

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
// nag-internet, nakipagharutan, nakinig sa iPod

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AS OF NOW:
// Sabihin (Zelle), Without You (Mariah Carey, epekto ito ng kaadikan sa Ken Lee), I Can Wait Forever (Air Supply, lakas patama)

THREE FRIENDS YOU MISS RIGHT NOW:
// Sir Fortunato Tacuboy III (Math 4 teacher ko. :)) ), Patricia Nacianceno (*big smile*), Charmy Camille Yu (soulmate!!!)

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
// digicam, a better laptop, a charmander stuffed toy (so kelangan talagang may charmander)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
// eating, reading books, surfing the net

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
// Paris, Rome, New York

THREE MALLS YOU USUALLY GO TO:
// TriNoMa, SM North EDSA, Robinsons Galleria (kelangan talagang kumpleto ang pangalan)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE FASTFOOD:
// KFC, Jollibee, McDonalds

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE DRINKS:
// C2, Mountain Dew, Coffee House (ung irish cream)

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
// pencil case (na parating puno), scical (dala ko talaga yan everywhere), notebooks

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
// blue, yellow, pink

TOP THREE TAMBAYAN:
// tambayan ng Circuit, math unit ng pisay, front lob sa pisay

THREE BESTEST BUDS:
pwedeng by group?

// mems ng circuit, pisay07 (str groupmates included), chem16 classmates

THREE FAVE NUMBERS:
// 8, 4, 17

THREE FEATURED FRIENDS:
makikigaya kay janel. new friends na lang din.

// franz, julie, jet (chem 16 classmates ko)

THREE PERSONS WHO LAST SENT YOU A MESSAGE:
// sir vlad, sir nat, brother ko (humihingi ng pasalubong. haha!)

THREE FRIENDS YOU SAW LAST TODAY:
// chet, floro, aj (right after nung meeting)

THREE SUPER FRIENDS:
// madami talaga. siguro electron07 na lang. :))

googling...

2008-03-29T17:33:00.000+08:00

stolen mula kay ginoong dayandante. :))

I. Search for the answers to the following at images.google.com and paste in the first image from the search results.

1. Age at next birthday: 17

// what the heck?! ano 'to?

2. Place you’d like to travel: Italy

// grabe. literal na mapa.

3. Favorite place: bedroom

// wow. sana ganyan rin kaganda ang kwarto ko.

4. Favorite object: charmander figurine

// mas cute pa rin yung sa akin.

5. Favorite food: strawberry ice cream (haha. specific.)

// nakakagutom naman. haha. :))

6. Favorite animal: earthworm (di naman siguro kayo nagtaka kung bakit neil_bookworm ang email add ko, di ba?)

// mukha siyan gummy worm! HAHAHA! :))

7. Favorite color: Blue

// how cute!

8. Place you were born: Pasig City

9. Place where you live: Pasig City

(since iisa lang ang sagot ko sa 8-9, parang pointless na irepost ko ung picture.)

// dahell. pasig side nga ba ito ng ortigas?

10. Name of a past pet: Snowy

// clarification: ASO po ang pet ko, at hindi PUNO. :))

11. Screen name/ nickname: metamerism

// clarification ulet: ang metamerism ay isang biological term na may kinalaman sa uod.

12. Your first name: Neil Jon Louie

// sino sila?

13. Your middle name: Petiluna

// sooo... ASAN ANG PETILUNA DITO?! interestingly, nung sinearch ko ang 'petiluna', 4th picture ang background ng blog ko.

14. Your last name: Miranda

// who the hell is this woman?

15. Your bad habit: procrastinator

// how cute! [rhoda, alam ko na sched mo!!!]

16. Your first job: None.

// no comment.

17. Your grandmother’s name: Anastacia

// hot ng lola ko, ano?!

18. Your favorite holiday: Christmas

// ang cute! /* it would have been cuter kung si garfield na lang. hehe. :)) */

II. Go to Google and type in quotation marks your name and then “likes to”. Then, post the first ten (10) things (or simply the interesting ones if you want) that pop up and make sense — sort of.

1. Neil likes to make art about his friends, family, popular culture and his love of music

// wow. so artist na pala ako ngayon. sige ba. lipat na ako sa pub. haha.

2. Neil likes to be all cutesy on his blog

// how true! haha! :))

3. Neil likes to tinker with the tractors

// huh? i've never been near any tractors in my whole life!

4. Neil likes to make plans to take over the world with his minions of doom

// *evil laugh* :))

5. Neil likes to remind himself that he had Pamela Anderson first

// nice. pwede bang tanggalin ang "first" tapos gawing p*****g na lang ung Pamela Anderson...

6. Neil likes to toil in his garden as well as play with his young children

// what the hell... una, may Pamela Anderson raw ako, tapos ngayon MAY ANAK NA AKO?!

7. Neil likes to sit on stuff for a while

// para kay rhoda dapat ito ha... :))

8. Neil likes to read and travel

// how true. :)

9. Neil likes to watch on television: match of the day, football, south park, cricket

// di po ako sporty person.. so i wouldn't be interested in watching sports. but i do enjoy watching south park.

10. Neil likes to study fossils today because they help recreate the ancient world

// oo na. nerd na ako. PERO DI NAMAN AKO GANUN KAADIK.

limampung tanong about her. :))

2008-03-26T15:36:00.000+08:00

stolen mula sa pagkarami-rami (NO DOUBLE MEANING). haha. :)

Can you answer 50 questions about the 1st person that comes into your mind right now?

Don’t change the person.

Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend??
// wala pa. :))

How old is the person?
// 17

Has he/she ever cooked for you?
// nope.

Is this person older than you?
// yes. by one year and three weeks.

Have you ever kissed this person?
// asa.

Are you really close to him/her?
// yes. :))

How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
// ngayon, bihira na. dati, everyday. :))

Do you think he/she will repost this?
// wala siyang multiply. think.

Could you live with this person?
// gusto ko. HAHA! kakayanin ko naman if ever.

Why did you choose this person?
// uhmm... next question please. haha.

How long have you known this person??
// third year high school

Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
// can't remember. hindi pa ata.

Have you ever had a sleepover with this person?
// nope. but i can go to her house anytime i like. malapit lang naman kasi.

If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
// *ignore ignore*

Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
// as in sex? wish ko lang. HAHA! joke. wala pa naman.

Do you know everything about this person?
// not everything.

Would you date this person’s siblings?
// only child lang xa.

Have you ever made something with this person
// made love. HAHA! joke. wala pa, bukod sa frienship.

Have you ever worn this person’s clothes?
// nope.

Have you and your person made up a hand shake?
// nope. di namin kelangan nun.

If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
// ayos lang. HAHAHA!

Have you ever heard this person sing?
// yup. lalo na yang jingle bells kasi maski hindi na pasko kakantahin nya yun of out the blue. :))

Do you and this person have a saying?
// wala.

Do you know this persons friendster password?
// nope.

Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight or argument?
// over super little things lang naman.

Have you and this person gone clubbing?
// nope.

Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
// halikan ko lang siya eh. joke. haha. of couse i know how to make her happy.

Do you and this person talk a lot?
// yup.

Do you like this person?
// HAHAHAHA!!! more than 'like' pa nga eh. :))

Have you and this person got into a fight?
// may ganito ulet? over super little things nga. pero bibihira lang. promise.

Do you want to go out with this person??
// of course!

Do you want to be friends with him/her forever?
// forever's not enough. haha!

pisay

2008-03-22T17:56:00.000+08:00

nakaw mula kay denise at kyla. :))

1) ano sec. mo nng 1st yr high ka?
// "topaz" (kung may ganun man) :))

2) eh nung 2nd yr?
// dahlia! :)

3) 3rd yr?
// lithium! :)

4) 4th yr?
// electron [ORDER!!!!] XD

5) anong best year for u?
// 3rd and 4th years. :)

6) baket? marami ka bang friends nun?
// lahat naman madami akong friends eh. sa 4th year lang talaga ako nasanay manggago ng teachers (at nagpapanggap na teachers. hihihi... :) )

7) san kau kumakain kapag lunch?
// caf. pag tinamad dadalhin sa kung saang classroom ang lunch.

8) san tumatambay after skul?
// first year, sa lib. [wak, nerd.] second year, sa front lob. third year, caf o front lob. fourth year, caf, front lob, back lob, at math unit. :)

9) lagi ka ba late pag morning?
// 1st hanggang 3rd year, hindi. 4th year, dumalas. wee. :)

10) nasuspend ka na ba?
// never! :))

11) Bakit?
// mabait ako eh. >.<

12) masaya ba pag foundation day?
// of course. haha. :))

13) have u ever danced on stage?
// nung sayaw int lang (4th year) at nung music presentation ng dahlia. never dreamt of having to dance on stage. haha. :)

14) nagka bf/gf ka ba nong highschool days?
// nope.

15) sinong all time crush mo nun?
// more than one. won't tell. HAHA.

16) would u go back?
// to teach (a.k.a. maghasik ng lagim), oo. pero magturo man o hindi, OO. :))

17) ano lagi mong binibili sa canteen?
// food! pero wala naman akong kinaadik-adikang bilhin.

18) overpricing ba ang canteen nyo?
// sobra! :)

19) u ever sang on stage pag may program?
// nope.

20) fave subj?
// math [DUH.], chem, physics. :)

21) nagkabagsak k n ba?
// nope! :))

22) have u ever been sent out?
// nope.

23) feel mo ba malau ang HS bldg till canteen?
// never na naging malayo ang caf. haha.

24) have u ever ran in the court?
// yup.

25) varsity? of wat?
// nope. (unless kung counted ung sa math. haha.)

26) do u miss ur school?
// sobra.

more random.

2008-03-16T17:38:00.000+08:00

http://mcll122788.multiply.com/photos/album/24

finally, i found it! :) /* musta naman at ang tagal na nito, tapos ngayon ko lang nakita. */

napagkatripan kasi ng isa sa batchmates namin na kunan kami ng picture, na hawak ang grad pic namin. haha. ang layo pala nung sa akin. haha. meron pa ngang mas malayo ang itsura sa grad pic compared sa personal. ang lakas talaga ng power ng photoshop. :))

CKTeers, ang 07 lang na andito ay ako (#049), aj (#088), christmas (#032), cyrus (#109), at greg (#020). wala si denise at jake dito. MELAI, i think you'd like to see #007. :))

survey. again.

2008-03-16T17:09:00.000+08:00

nakaw mula kay erwin at chet. haha.

.: Bahay :.

1. paggising mo anung una mong ginagawa?
:: i-reset ang alarm clock at matulog ulit! haha. :)

2. san ka lage nakatambay sa bahay niyo?
:: higaan ko.. either tulog, naglalaptop, o di kaya'y nakahiga lang. habang nagmumuni-muni. haha.

3. anung lugar ang pinakabihira mong puntahan?
:: likod. wala naman kasi akong gagawin dun eh. kahit na araw-araw ko sila nakikita. hehe.

4. ilang bintana meron kayo?
:: labindalawa. :)

5. ilang tv meron kayo?
:: tatlo.

6. ilan naman ang computer niyo?
:: tatlo. (laptop included.)

7. anung parte ng bahay ang pinakamaingay?
:: kwarto ko rin. lalo na pag gabi kasi nocturnal akong tao. lalo na pag summer. wala kami pakialam kung gising na buong village sa lakas ng boses namin. haha.

8. taong bahay kaba?
:: pagbakasyon, oo. paano ako hindi magiging taong bahay kung nocturnal nga ako.. pag may pasok naman, hindi. musta naman ang aalis nang maaga at darating nang gabi. as in maaga na ang 9 PM. haha.

.: Acads :.

1. san ka nag-aaral?
:: pamantasan ng pilipinas, diliman

2. masaya ka ba dun?
:: of course! :))

3. anung subject ka natutulog?
:: hindi ako nakakatulog sa klase. kasi nagagawan ko ng ibang paraan pag boring yung lecture o walang kwenta ung prof namin.

4. sang klase ka naman patakas na kumakain?
:: halos lahat. lalo na dun sa mga klase kung saan bawal magdala ng food and drinks (katulad sa LC1 twing eee11 lec. haha.)

5. san ka naman ngseseryoso?
:: math at eee. kelangan eh.

6. nangopya ka na ba?
:: homework lang. pero bibihira.

7. nagcutka na ba?
:: HAHAHA!!! ask my blockmates at eto rin ang reaction nila. lalo na sa geog (sem 1). at chem lec (sem 2). hehe.

8. ilang beses ka na napunta sa clinic?
:: once. nung physical test.

9. Sino pinakakinakatakutan mong guro?
:: wala pa so far.

10. sinong teacher ang lagi kang pinapalabas?
:: never pa akong pinapalabas sa klase. pero kung gusto kong palabasin, i have so many to choose from.. si l***r,... *evil laugh*

11. mabute kbng estudyante?
:: not much. kasi i'm not that gc compared nung nasa high school pa ako.

.: Lovelife :.

1. masaya kba sa lovelife mo ngayun?
:: depende sa definition ng masaya. pero kung happy as in taken, nako. next question please. :)

2. eh bakit naman?
:: ano ba. haha. too complicated to give a short answer.

3. mahal mo ba siya?
:: sobra.

4. sino mas mahalaga sarili mo o mahal mo?
:: seriously, ako pa rin.

5. kaya mo bang mawala siya?
:: "i can live, if living is without you..." patama sa aking ang kantang yan. pero masakit pa rin, syempre.

6. may gusto ka ba ngayon?
:: of course.

7. sinu mas matangkad sa inyo?
:: ako. pero di naman malaki ang itinaas ko sa kanya eh.

8. kaya mo bang mamatay para sa taong mahal mo?
:: yes. kahit mas mahalaga pa ang sarili ko kaysa sa kanya/kanila. (labo, ano?!)

9. panu mo malalaman kung dapat ka na mag-let go?
:: kapag di ko na kaya siyang ipagtanggol sa mundo. (ay, may ganun!)

10. panu mo naman malalaman kung dapat ka mghold on?
:: ganun din, pag pakiramdam ko kaya ko pang pasanin ang buong mundo para lang hindi bumigay.

11. masaya ba maging single?
:: depende nga sa definition ng masaya. but not totally masaya in a sense. kasi may masaklap na aspekto rin ang pagiging single.

tired...

2008-03-16T15:25:00.000+08:00

random post. haha.

click here to if you're bored. first time kong nakita yang video nung friday.. sa aming last ever formal chem lab meeting. [wala na akong chem. haay.] anyway, may quiz kami nun [seriously, isang quiz sa chem LAB. hindi sa LEC. at sa last ever meeting pa. bait talaga ni ma'am.] tapos para sa bonus, pinanood nya sa amin yang video. ang hindi matawa, plus 10.

musta naman at nang patapos na ang video ay humirit ang isa naming classmate, tapos natawa si floro. eh di nahatak lahat. muntik na ako. pero napangiti ako. kaso kelangang POKER FACE. oh well. walang bonus. kasi naman. :)) well, anyway, nakakatawa nga naman siya. sayang nga lang kasi ang ganda-ganda ng kanta. hehe.

hell

2008-02-27T14:58:00.000+08:00

stolen from everybody else...

[actually, i've already taken this test before. sir argh (english 4) suggested w take this test while we were discussing dante's inferno. haha. back then i was still doomed to malebolge. haha. :))

haay. electron memories.]

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Valentine's survey

2008-02-10T15:32:00.000+08:00

found this from so many of my contacts. here's my own version. :)

This is a Valentine's truth
survey. So don't lie:

1.Do you like anyone?
*of course!

2. Are you flirty:
*nope. hehe.

3. Are you a player?
*never.

4. Would you get back together with any of your exes?:
*i've never had an ex before.

5. Have you ever kissed anyone of your friends?
*nope. not yet.

6. Do you want a valentine?
*badly need one. haha.

7. Have you slept over at the opposite sex's house?:
*lots of times! :)

8. Do you prefer group dates or single ones?
*either. depending on who i'm going to date with. haha.

10. Do you like someone who you can not have?
*yes.

11. Any plans for valentines day?
*still thinking of a plan. but most likely it would be to date myself somewhere. :(

12.What's the best valentines day present for a girl?
*i still go for the already cliche flowers and chocs.

14. Are you single or taken?:
*single, but not available (because i'm still waiting for someone. :( )

15.Who do you want to date in Valentine's Day?
*my beloved. :))

Remember, if you don't post this you'll be unhappy during Valentine's day this year!. repost this as Valentine's survey!

Bastusan Survey

2008-02-08T14:28:00.000+08:00

found this from rhoda, janel, erwin, and aj. haha.

How will you seriously answer someone in the following situations given?

What if someone, a STRANGER, insults you or tells you these...

01. ang arte mo!
*feeling mo! patunayan mo nga!

02. mas matalino naman ako sayo!
*napakabobo mo naman para marealize na mas matalino talaga ako sayo.

03. crush ako ng crush mo!
*so?

04. ang bobo mo pala sa math!
*kilala mo ba kausap mo?

05. bilisan mo naman!
*sori ha.

06. ang sungit mo!
*eh ano sayo?

07. gusto mo ng away?
*awayin mo sarili mo.

08. takot ka ata sakin eh?
*duh. kamukha mo si chelsea eh!

09. mas mahal niya ko!
*sino siya?

10 . ang bababa naman ng mga grades mo!
*sori ha. mababa nga naman ang mga uno ko compared sa mga singko mo.

What if sinabi ito sa'yo ng CRUSH mo? (WARNING: bear in mind na biro lang ang mga 'to ah!)

01. crush kita.
*talaga?!

02. hindi kita mahal
*aus lang.

03. mahal na kita.
*so tayo na? :)

04. pakopya naman ng assignment.
*ayoko nga. turuan na lang kita.

05. crush ko un friend mo.
*oh? bakit naman?

06. pwedeng patabi sa upuan?
*sure.

07. pwede mo ba akong isayaw?
*sige ba.

08. feeling ko may gusto ka sakin.
*paano mo naman nasabi?

09. ang cute mong mag-smile.
*ikaw rin.

10. bakit ang bait mo sakin?
*mabait naman talaga akong tao eh. :P

Eh kapag parents mo nagsabi sa'yo nito?

01. umuwi ka ng maaga.
*huh? what time?

02. magaling ka palang sumayaw.
*pa, kelangan mo na ba ng bagong salamin?

03. hindi ka na pwedeng pumasok sa klase.
*bakit naman?

04. bawal ka pang mag-boyfriend/girlfriend.
*kaya ko namang isabay ang pag-aaral ko sa girlfriend ko ah.

Eh kapag teacher mo nagsabi sa'yo nito?

01. kailangan kong makausap ang magulang mo.
*bakit po?

02. ang makita kong mangopya mamatay na!
*maawa ka naman po sa lahat ng kaklase ko.

03. bakit ka ba laging bagsak?
*hindi po ako un.

04. see me after class!
*ok.

05. i'm sorry, you'll be given a 5 in your class card.
*

06. uno ka!
*ah.. ok.

07. please come to class on time.
*sige. susubukan ko po.

08. please read pages 78-150. We'll be having a quiz about it tomorrow.
*un lang po?

09. why are you always absent?!
*baka katabi ko po un ulet. nagdrop na po kaya xa.

10. babagsak ka na.
*weh! patingin po ng breakdown ng grade ko. [if he/she wasn't really lying.. *ang kulit nyo po eh! sabing hindi po ako si

what age do you act?

2008-01-23T12:47:00.000+08:00

You Act Like You Are 16 Years Old

You are a teenager at heart. You don't quite feel like a grown up yet, but you don't feel like a kid.
You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

You're quite rebellious, and you don't like being told what to do. You like to do things your way.
You have your own unique style, taste in music, and outlook on life.

What Age Do You Act?

wow. this is so true. and considering i'm 16.ü

upcat

2008-01-13T10:42:00.000+08:00

upcat results for batch 2008 are here!

wow. it seemed like yesterday that we were looking at the same website just to know if we made it. and now we're looking just to know whether the next generation shared the same fate with us.

time just flies so fast. a moment ago we're 'freshies', now it's our time to congratulate those who made it (and to console those who didn't). haha. though i was surprised that they released the results earlier than usual (ateneo already had their list of successful applicants. and upcat results usually come a month or so later.)

oh well. at least we're done with math 17. we're halfway through math 53. now it's their time to suffer. *evil laugh*. (however, since 2nd year is always a notch higher than 1st year, we still have to endure 3 more maths, and the so-called dreadful es11. (i still cannot say if es11 is horrible or not until i get to take it.) waah.)

the new upcat results (and the newest batch of "iskolars ng bayan") just remind me how fast i'm turning old. haha. oh well. time to face the fact that sooner or later we're no longer freshmen, and we're moving a step higher on the eee ladder. haha.

to batch 2008: congratulations, and welcome to up!

[well at least i'm happy she made it through up - and through mbb! knowing that only a few make it through mbb, i'm proud of her. haha. *big smile*]

help me! haha.

2008-01-11T16:44:00.000+08:00

wow. good luck to me. chem16 exam's tomorrow (3-5 PM) and it is in conflict with my eee11 class (1-4 PM). what am i going to do?

getting a late exam wouldn't help. my stupid chem16 professor (name not mentioned for security purposes. haha.) assumed that there will be no conflict in the schedule of the exam, and though if i told her, she just mentioned "good luck na lang sa'yo.*smirk*" grrr.

i suppose it would be fine to leave class early (as i always do every meeting, because i get to finish the machine exercises early). however, there may still be the possibility that i would need all the time (until 4 PM) to finish all the machine exercises (and i think i've never left class for as early as 3:00). and i wouldn't cut the class since the machine problem is due the next week and i still don't know whether my program works in linux (and it has bugs yet to be fixed.) besides, i promised (whatever...) never to cut classes again. well, for this semester. haha.

so, what will i do? well i suppose i have no other option but to attend class, then leave early, whether i get to finish the machine exercise or not. i'll just go to class early so i wouldn't get the erratic terminal (the one that tends to disconnect.) that i got the last time we had a meeting (which was last year.)

i'm definitely not taking any classes (other than pe or nstp (next year)) on a saturday next sem. i hate it when my exams are in conflict with my classes.

oh well. wish me luck tomorrow. hope i get to leave class early (and in time for the exam.)

childhood memories. haha.

2007-12-30T12:35:00.000+08:00

found this from erwin, carl, and janel. haha.

If you were born before 1993, then this survey should be easy for you to fill out!
If you're not, don't even bother, you'll just be confused!

1. What year were you born in?
[1991]

2. Did you ever watch sineskwela?
[nope. because i already know (by then) the stuff they're showing. haha. so yes, i'm a nerd since birth.]

3. Backstreet boys or NSYNC?
[backstreet boys! until now i still listen to their songs.]

4. Did you watch S Club 7?
[nope.]

5. What was your favorite, Sandlot or Little Rascals?
[Little Rascals. i've watched this lots of times back then. and i've never heard of Sandlot before. haha.]

6. Did you ever have light up sneakers?
[yup. i was even nearly caught destroying my brother's light up sneakers so i could find out why they light up. haha.]

7. What was your favorite thing about recess?
[the food. back then i was so fat. haha. i'll never forget my everyday combo of fried egg and half a cup of rice.]

8. Cedie o Sarah?
[i liked cedie better. but the animated version only.]

9. Did you wake up really early just to watch cartoons on Saturday morning?
[wake up really early of Saturday morning? yes. to watch cartoons? no. we play the Playstation (those were the days when the Playstation was the most advanced game console. now,...). actually, only my brother does. i intend not to watch because back then i was so afraid of resident evil. haha.]

10. What was your favorite holiday?
[christmas season. i get twice the gifts and twice the food because my birthday is just 3 days away from christmas. haha.]

11. Did you ever try to stay up on Christmas eve?
[i stay up on christmas eve every year.]

12. What grade did you like the best?
[grades 4 and 6. grade 4 'cob i got so bonded with my friends because of the Garfield dictionary. (i think this is where i got to like garfield.) grade 6 because i gave honor to my school because i placed 3rd on an inter-school spelling quiz bee, and i was the first in our school to study in Pisay. and of course, because of these achievements, i became the most popular kid in school. wahaha.]

13. Ninja Turtles or Power Rangers?
[power rangers. i hated the idea of turtles that acted much like humans.]

14 . What Power Ranger were you?
[blue ranger! haha.]

15. Did you ever own a chinese garter?
[no. why would i?]

16. What was your favorite thing to eat?
[back then you could not ask me this question because i ate so many. haha. but i think it's chicken.]

17 . What was your favorite color?
[blue, yellow and orange. until today.]

18. Barney or Sesame street?
[neither. i found both boring and cheesy.]

19. Do you ever miss being a little kid?
[of course!]

20. Do you wish you were older?
[nope. i was satisfied being the youngest in our batch yet one of the oldest among us cousins.]

21 . What was your first pet's name?
[Parte (short for Napoleon Bonaparte). he was the family dog, and we had so many times together (until he died of old age when i was in grade one.) and i didn't give the name to him. i never realized it instantly why we called him Parte.]

22. Who was your best friend in kindergarten?
[i think his name was Ted. back then we were living in Laguna. he was my partner in crime. (and i was a total bully back then.) i lost contact with him because we moved to Pasig at the end of the school year. i think he's in Cavite today. haha.]

23 . Are you still friends with the person you were best friends with in the 3rd grade?
[yes, but we rarely see each other, although we live in the same village. and they're already in UST. and UP and UST are in opposite directions from home.]

An Accurate Test for EVERYONE

2007-12-29T11:05:00.000+08:00

haha. try this. got this from rhoda (wahaha.) i just posted it again. (hoping my wish would come true.)

DO NOT CHEAT

OR IT WON'T WORK AND
YOU WILL WISH YOU HADN`T.

TAKE 3 MINUTES
TRY THIS - IT WILL FREAK YOU OUT

THIS GAME HAS A FUNNY / CREEPY OUTCOME.

DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT.

IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH A TRY

1st. Get PEN and PAPER

2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE
THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY
KNOW

3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST
INSTINCTS !!!!! Very important for
good results.

4th SCROLL DOWN

ONE LINE AT THE TIME
DON`T READ AHEAD
otherwise
YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN.

1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE
NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on
the LEFT.

2. Next to the NUMBERS 1 & 2,

WRITE DOWN ANY
2 NUMBERS YOU WANT.

DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER?

3. Next to the NUMBERS 3 & 7,

WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS
OF THE OPPOSITE SEX. SAME SEX IF GAY

CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL
NOT TURN OUT RIGHT

4. WRITE ANYONES NAME

(like FRIENDS or FAMILY...)
next to 4, 5 & 6.

DON`T CHEAT OR YOU`LL BE UPSET THAT
YOU DID

5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8,
9, 10, & 11

6. Finally,

MAKE A WISH

ARE YOU READY?
HERE IS THE

KEY TO THE GAME

1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE THAT LIKE YOU
is found in

SPACE 2

2. THE PERSON IN SPACE

3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE

3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your
relationship CANNOT WORK is in

SPACE 7

.

4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you
put in

SPACE 4

5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS
THE ONE WHO

KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.

6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS YOUR

LUCKY STAR

7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT
MATCHES WITH THE

PERSON IN NUMBER 3

8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE

PERSON IN 7

9. THE 10TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT
TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT

YOUR MIND

10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU

FEEL ABOUT LIFE

11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR

LUCKY NUMBER

repost this
WITHIN AN HOUR OF READING THIS.

IF YOU DO, YOUR WISH WILL COME TRUE.

wahaha. i hate the outcome of my list. because for some unknown reason, i interchanged my #3 and #4. [and i never cheated at all!] oh well. i really wish my wish comes true.

this test so reminds me of kokology. haha.

christmas/birthday wish list

2007-12-21T14:35:00.000+08:00

(this same article can be found here.)

it had been months since i last wrote for my blog. haha. i rarely had time to write because i was preoccupied with supposedly more important things. haha. anyway, since i see so many people doing this, and i do this every year, here is my christmas/birthday wish list. (i do not publish my wish list usually, though. this is the first time that the public sees what i want for christmas and my birthday. haha.)

world peace, end to poverty and sickness, a better economy for our country, blah blah blah. (everyone wishes for this, though it may not be in everyone's top priorities.)
better health for me, my family and friends. (self-explanatory)
increase in stipends, and a decrease in the price of commodities. (so i get to buy more of what i want and need. haha.)
4 gigabyte usb flash drive (i'm starting to find my flash drive so troublesome.)
a wifi hotspot at home.
mango and strawberry-flavored ice cream and cake.
lots of ferrero rocher and hershey's cookies and creme.
a copy of memoirs of a geisha (the novel and the movie based on it)
the hardbound, special illustrated edition of angels and demons by dan brown. (so i get to understand my favorite novel more.)
an atlas of world history, a visual encyclopedia, or any general reference book for nerds. (this has always been in my wish list ever since i was young.)
a charmander, squirtle, patamon or agumon stuffed toy. (so i feel like a pokemon/digimon master. haha.)
a li shaoran figurine (so i'll always remember my experience as a up circuit app.)
a 3x3x3 rubik's cube key chain (i see many people with this, yet i don't know where i can find one.)
new iPod earphones
a new phone, and a PSP to go with it.
last but definitely not the least, a better and lasting relationship with GOD. in Him, nothing is impossible.

haha. 16 wishes for my 16th birthday. happy holidays, everyone!

new blog

2007-08-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

http://gawadsupremo.wordpress.com/

on my new blog will be my views and opinions on a vast array of topics and issues. basically, it will function just like a reaction paper.

i will still retain this blog so you can know more about things that concern the world revolving around me more directly. hehehe... oo nga pala. sorry kung hindi ako masyadong nakakapag-update ng blog. masyado lang akong madaming ginagawa... lalo na ang acads at ang application process ko sa UP Circuit.

i will update this blog as soon as kumonti na ang mga ginagawa ko. again, sorry sa inconvenience.

weekend

2007-07-06T22:22:00.000+08:00

friday night na naman. weekend ulet! haay. bakit ba ang bilis ng panahon. weekend na naman. parang kelan lang ung huling weekend ah. di ba "time flies when you're having fun"?does that mean na we're having fun ngayon? ewan ko ba.

di tulad sa Pisay, pag friday night, masaya. kasi pwede ka nang magpuyat dahil sa gusto mong magpuyat, hindi dahil sa napipilitan ka. makakapanood ka ng kahit anong gusto mo nang hindi muna iniintindi ang ano mang acad-related. ngayon..since may klase ako sa sabado, wala. di ko xa nagagawa. oh well. andyan naman ang tuesday nights. pero iba pa rin kapag friday night at free ka ng 2 araw.

ang malala..isa lang ang klase ko tuwing sabado. 2 oras lang. PE pa yun. wala lang. pupunta ako ng UP sa sabado ng 2 oras para lang maglaro. sulet ang pamasahe at panglunch ko. oh well. kaysa naman wednesday na pwedeng makabanggaan pa ang ano mang activity.

gusto ko ngang lumabas eh. malapit nang ipalabas ang Harry Potter. gusto ko sana IMAX eh. pero poverty ako ngayon. shocks. di pa pala ako nagbubukas ng ATM account. sayang naman ung stipends ko pag di ko nakukuha. mas mataas pa naman xa compared sa stipends ko nung sa Pisay.

haay...gusto kong itulog ang lahat. lahat ng problema ko. lahat ng gusto kong mangyari pero di ko magawang mangyari. lahat ng kinaiinisan ko. lalo na yung ES 1. di naman sa di ko nagegets. pero yung may nakakaalam agad kung paano tapusin ang plate bago ko xa maisip. di naman sa kelangang ako agad ang makakaisip. di naman ako ang pinakamatalinong tao sa mundo eh. yun point ko lang yung napipilitan akong kopyahin yung sagot dahil di ko makuha, tapos kung itanong ko kung paano nagawa eh napakasimple lang. rawr! ang stupid ko.

di naman ako galit sa mga nakakaisip agad eh. di lang naman ako ang "master" sa block namin eh. (sa rubiks cube siguro oo. joke. master din naman si enri.) andyan si nikko, si adrian, at napakadami pa. kaya mali ung sinasabi nilang super talino ng mga Pisay people. advanced lang curriculum namin pero it does not mean na advanced din kami. (post hoc fallacy ba ito?) may practically an extraordinary school dahil sa extraordinary ang acads pero ordinary ang students. (di naman lahat nerd eh.)

ano nga ba ang kinalaman nito sa friday night? sorry. nagdeviate na naman ako. parati naman eh. haay. weekend. kay sarap ng feeling. more time to enjoy things other than acads (kung na-eenjoy mo nga xa). buti 2 oras lang ang classes ko sa sabado. kaya parang wala lang. after nun eh fun fun time na!

ang daming nangyari ng week na ito. andyan ung unang plate sa ES 1 na di ko agad nagets kung paano sagutan (rawr!), andyan ang aming movie sa bio na ang title ay "Understanding Sex". ["We males are more than bags of sperm..."]. andyan din ang movie na tungkol kay Abraham (para sa group presentation ng Kanlurang Asya sa Kas 2), mga tambay hours sa tambayan ng UP Circuit (naka 3 hrs and 50 minutes na ako! 26 hours and 10 minutes na lang.:D), ang test sa Math 17, at ang results nun (thank God at perfect ako.:D sa mga nakabasa ng stat message ko sa YM the night before the test, ung "kapag na-uno ko ang Math 17 exam,..." in this case, nauno ko xa... "...isa lang ang ibig sabihin nun. pinahirapan nga kami ni ma'am b****. di ko pwedeng banggitin dito kung sino xa kasi nasa UP na xa ngaun. baka pagtripan ako pagdating ng mga susunod na math.), andyan ang pagmap ng academic oval at ang lagpas dalawang libong steps around the oval at ang patigil-tigil na lakad kasi ANG DAMING ACACIA TREE (ung are required sa aming bilangin.), at madami pang event. at least nakapagbond pa ako lalo sa mga blockmates ko [ISSUE!!!], sa mga mems ng UP Circuit, at sa kung sino pa.

oh well. tapos na ang linggong ito. ano kaya ang mangyayari sa susunod na week? parating tandaan na hindi literal ang ibig sabihin ng weekend. it is merely a transition period between two action-packed weeks. the end of one week is the beginning of the next.:D

hanggang dito lang muna. may pasok pa ako bukas eh. sige. salamat sa pagtitiyagang pagbasa ng article na ito up to this point. sana ay basahin nyo rin ang ibang mga entries ko. at sana magtag din kayo.:D

umagang kay bangag...

2007-07-05T06:33:00.000+08:00

hello philippines and hello world! [weh neil.. ang corny mo, as usual. teka.. hindi ba't sa gabi ito ginagawa ni toni at hindi sa umaga? eh bakit ngayon mo sinasabi...]

sorry na. bangag na agad ako. umaga pa lang, bangag na ako. anong oras na ba? 6.30?! di pa nga ako pumapasok eh bangag na ako... parati naman. lalo na nung high school. may times na paggising pa lang ay bangag na ako. lalo na paggising mo eh alam mo nang iniwanan ka na ng service mo at kelangan mong magcommute papunta pisay... at saktong may PE (minsan CAT) ngayong araw at magdadala ka pa ng isa pang bag...

pero ngayon, bangag ako dahil wala lang. pangit tulog ko kagabi eh. [wala kau magagawa dun.] may 2 oras pa naman ako bago magklase, which means may 30 minutes pa akong magsulat dito... grabe. long time no post. mag-iisang buwan na pala ung huling post ko. pero eto ang unang beses na hindi ako nakapagpost agad dahil sa tinatamad ako. hindi dahil sa subsob sa requirements. wala na ako sa pisay. nasa UP na ako. although may requirements pa rin, hindi na bumabaha. sa pisay, when it rains, it pours (and overflows.) sa UP, when it rains, it gets wet. yun lang. :D

naninibago pa rin ako dahil konti lang ang ginagawa namin.. kadalasan nga, ang pinagkakaabalahan ko sa isang araw (kung hindi ung mga dilaw na plates namin sa ES 1) ay ang pagrerewrite ng notes ko. sorry. OC ako. inaamin ko. [pero given na ata yun eh.] hindi katulad sa pisay. ang pinagkakaabalahan ko sa isang araw (kung hindi ang mga sangkaterbang requirement sa STR) ay ang baha ng requirements mula sa sandamakmak na subjects.

so basically mas free ako ngayon... pero hindi pa ako nakakatapak sa isang mall simula nang nag-UP ako. hindi ko nga alam kung bakit eh. kahit man lang SM North o ang TriNoma (on the other side of the road), di ko mapuntahan. maski ang gateway, glorietta, at ang MOA (na hindi ko pa napupuntahan ever.) [nakakaawa naman ako... nadaig na ako ng nakababata kong kapatid na 3 beses nang napuntahan un... at least napuntahan ko na yung TriNoma twice bago magpasukan at xa hindi pa.. :D]

malapit nang mag-7. mag-aayos na nga ako. baka di ulet ako umabot ng Geog 1. dapat kasi Kas 2 ung first subject parati sa umaga para mas mahahaba ang tulog ko. total, d*d*n* l*p*r lang yan eh. joke po. sorry po. ay gusto nyo ba ng mga 99.99% corny jokes nya? ung katulad nung mga hinihirit ni sir sh*rwin.. [joke. di ko nga alam kung bakit ang sama ko kay sir sh*win... after nya akong bigyan ng 1.25 sa math 5...] sige. meron akong isang super naalala...

"Alam nyo ba ung taiga," (referring to the coniferous forest) "sikat yan eh. You know, si Taiga Woods, ung golfer?..."

sabi ko sa inyo corny eh. eto ang nakukuha namin after ng super nakakapagod na pag-akyat sa AS hanggang top floor. [sulet, di ba?!] daig pa nya ata si sir sh*rwin eh. mas matatawa ka sa mga jokes ng Kas 2 prof namin dahil sa effort. in other words, mas corny ang jokes ni Prof. Kas 2. [tumunog ang alarm clock ko.. whaaaaattt!!!!!] shocks.. 7 na! kelangan nang mag-ayos! Kas 2 prof kasi. nadistract ako. sige. hanggang dito lang muna. maghahanda na ako. papasok na ako!:D

the "no hug" rule

2007-06-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

time flies so fast, isn't it? one day we're entering pisay, the next thing we know, we're throwing our togas and singing the pisay hymn for one last time. now, we're going our separate ways in college. here's a poem that i've read to remind us of how far we've come..

The "No Hug" Rule

Cheryl Costello-Forshey

The first day of kindergarten
He hurried to the door
Shrugging off his mother's hugs
He didn't need them anymore
For he was all grown up now
Too big for all that stuff
Instead he waved a quick goodbye
Hoping that would be enough

When he came home from school that day
She asked what he had done
He handed her a paper
With a big round yellow sun
A picture quite imperfect
For he'd mess up here and there
But she didn't seem to notice
Or she didn't seem to care

The first day of junior high
He hurried to the door
Running from his mother's hugs
He didn't want them anymore
He ignored her calling out to him
As he hurried down the street
Near the intersection
Where his friends had planned to meet
He hoped that she would understand
Why he had to walk to school
Riding with his mother
Just wouldn't have been cool

And when he came home from school
She asked what he had done
He handed her some papers
With Xs marked on more than one
The teacher clearly pointing out
The wrong answers clearly here and there
But his mother didn't seem to notice
Or she didn't seem to care

The first day of senior high
He hurried out the door
Jumped into the driver's seat
Of his jacked-up shiny Ford
He left without his breakfast
He left without a word
But he turned and looked back
Before pulling from the curb
He saw her waving frantically
As he drove away
He tapped his horn just once
To brighten up her day
He saw a smile across her face
And then he drove from sight
Onward to a different world
A new exciting life

And at his graduation
As tears shone in her eyes
He knew the time had come
To bid his mom goodbye
For he was off to college
Off to better days
No more rules to abide
Alone to find his way

Suitcases filled the trunk
Of his dirty beat-up Ford
He couldn't wait to get to school
To check out his room and dorm
She opened up his car door
Closed it when he got in
Then smiled proudly at her son
As tears dropped from her chin
She reached through the open window
Wished him luck at school
And them she pulled him close to her
And broke the "no hug" rule
He felt the freedom greet him
As he pulled out on the interstate
At last his life was his alone
He anticipated fate

College life was more challenging
Than he ever could have hoped
There was no time to respond to letters
His mother often wrote
He was a grown adult now
Too old for that stuff
His visits during holidays
Would have to be enough
Besides, midterms were quickly coming
The pressure was immense
He studied late into the night
His need to pass intense
He wondered how he'd manage
How he'd ever cope
What if he failed his tests?
Would there be no hope?

As if he had a calling
He headed down the interstate
Driving at full speed
The hour getting late
He pulled up to the curb
Where once he used to roam
And went through the open door
Of his mother's home
She was sitting at the table
With a drawing in a frame
Memories from the past
That brought both joy and pain
She didn't need to ask
Why he was home from school
Because she knew the answer
When he broke the "no hug" rule
His arms around her tightly
Peering at the drawing he had done
Lots of trees, imperfect branches
And a big round yellow sun
She smiled a knowing smile
And then she spoke aloud
"Son you always did
And you always will make me very proud
For look how far you've traveled
From that little boy so brave
Heading off to kindergarten
Your hand up in a wave
And through the years you've made mistakes
But son I've made them, too
Being perfect is not an option in life
Simply do the best you can do
And don't expect more than that
For life is supposed to be fun
You've only got one to live
Do what is best for you son"

Sitting in his dorm room
When the pressure seems too much
And all that he is striving for
Seems completely out of touch
He peers at the drawing
Of a big round yellow sun
And then he is reminded
Of just how far he's come
From childhood to manhood
Fighting back many a fear
Through trials and tribulations
Holding back many a tear
Knowing that being successful
Isn't passing every test
And the only way to falter in life
Is by failing to do his best
And the biggest lesson he's learned
One he did not learn in school...
That it's okay, even for a man
To break the "no hug" rule

we don't know what college may bring for us. just remember that if we get lost in the world out there, always remember that our friends and family will be there for us all the way.. good luck to everyone! Go Batch 2007!

countdown to pasukan..

2007-06-04T21:27:00.000+08:00

8 days to go at pasukan na sa UP.. grabe.. ang bilis ng panahon. parang kelan lang na nasa pisay pa ako, at nabilang sa "most bonded section" (asan nga ba ang topaz?), sa dahlia (cavemen!), sa lithium (overnight!!!), at sa electron (ORDER!!!). parang kahapon lang na kinanta ko ang pisay hymn for the last time sa gym. parang kahapon lang din na nagpahirap ako ng mga estudyante sa headstart..

well, nagfirst day of classes na ang pisay kanina. well, parati nmang maaga ang pasok sa pisay eh. musta na kaya dun? sana naman maging maayos ang pamamalakad ng '08 sa pisay. katulad ng maayos na pamamalakad ng '07. (well...)

ayun. i'm still kinakabahan sa mangyayari sa akin. in 8 days ay ganap na akong freshman sa UP. tuluyan ko nang iiwan ang pisay sa aking likuran.. ang pisay kung saan natutunan kong magcram at magpakaOC.. ang pisay kung saan nakakilala ako ng mga tunay na kaibigan, kung saan naranasan kong bumagsak sa isang perio, kung saan madami akong naexperience na firsts...

sana nga ay maging kasingsaya ang aking stay sa UP katulad ng aking pamamalagi sa pisay. oh well.. in 8 days ko pa malalaman.. sige. hanggang dito muna. sa lahat ng '07 na papasok sa UP Diliman, kita kits!

of teachers and their mannerisms [so that]...

2007-06-04T14:07:00.000+08:00

(pure english ulit kasi serious mode ang post na ito.)

i did not spend my whole summer vacation thinking about my post-Pisay crisis (refer to my previous post). i was preoccupied for about a month because of Headstart, an academic advancement program given by Lantaka, a youth club and study center. Headstart aims to give sophomore and junior high school students a taste of the lessons they will learn for the incoming school year. i was invited to teach chemistry 1 to incoming sophomores.

i accepted this invitation to teach because this will give me the opportunity to improve and harness my teaching skills. i have developed a passion for teaching, and i have always dreamed of teaching at pisay after i graduate from college. so if i want to be a teacher someday, i have to act like one sooner or later to train myself.

well, things did not go as planned during Headstart. first, the day of election was unaccounted in making the schedules, and the schedule was fixed, giving me less time to teach everything. i had to readjust, so i had to teach for elongated periods everyday. second, our pace was much slower than what was planned, especially because i could not control my class. i admit to this being my greatest weakness in teaching. and i am still learning to impose more control on my students. this and a lot more factors resulted to my students learning less than half of the lessons in store.

this was the first time that i taught chemistry to anyone. so i admit that i know little on how to teach chemistry in the most efficient way. i know and admit that i did not give my 100% in teaching. and to that i apologize to my students.

but what do i get? a week after Headstart, there was a closed retreat. a co-teacher, eduard (also from pisay 2007) went to the retreat, including some other headstart students. he told me some students of mine that were also there spent some nights imitating me and my "mannerisms". (i didn't know if i had any.) so this is what i get after striving to make them learn. to be backstabbed and everything.

this is where i realized that i was struck by bad karma. last year, we made fun of one of my teacher's mannerisms, like "so that", "but then", "electron, order!", and so many more, behind her back. [her identity will be kept secret.] worse, we once tallied every mannerism that she says during class. we also made fun of her teachings because she said something like "negative times negative is negative", and so on. now, it's my turn to be made fun of during my back.

i reflected on this, and i realized that i was not appreciating how much the teachers spend many sleepless nights just trying to understand every concept that they are about to teach, making it easier for the students to understand. i did not appreciate how teachers strive to make their students learn. i felt ashamed by making fun of what they had spent so much time to prepare.

to those who backstabbed me and made fun of me, i hope you realize what you have done as i had. never make fun of your teachers. because you owe a lot to them. they have sacrificed everything just to make you learn, and i hope you appreciate their sacrifice, despite of their mistakes and mannerisms. and so i apologize to all the teachers that i had made fun of, especially that teacher which i mentioned. i have come a long way, thanks to all your efforts to push me forward.

(good luck and have a happy school year to those we have left in pisay. batch 2008, you have control of the school now. do your best. continue to uphold pisay's reputation.)

what lies ahead...

2007-05-30T04:35:00.000+08:00

wow. so much had passed since my last post four months ago. back then i was furious at myself for not making it on the director's list for three times in a row, furious that my relationship with my str groupmates was spiraling downward, and worrying that i would not graduate with honors (although it knew that it was a bluff since i needed an average of 1.8-something to graduate with honors. and the lowest average i attained so far in my pisay life was 1.6-something. and i knew it all along that i would not graduate with highest honors since i need a flat 1.0 average, or the next highest average, to do so.)

but what happened? i made it on the director's list on the last quarter of my pisay stay, with an average of 1.410. i was not satisfied at start because i was so close to attaining a higher average, but in the end i was contented that i made it. my relationship with my str groupmates improved. we even won the best poster during the ymsat week. (and we were so shocked because we all thought it was so ugly. luckily they did not post it outside the str unit.) and i graduated with honors - one of more than 50 in batch 2007 to do so.

after everything in pisay, after chasing my teachers for signatures for the last time as a pisay student and finally being cleared after a month since i returned my books, after stepping out of pisay for what may be the last time, what's next?

i am so tired of thinking. i feel braindead now. and then i remembered something that sir vlad mentioned to us one time during econ class.

"change your paradigm!"

i really never understood the concept of paradigm (nice job for being the first ever Gawad Supremo) other than that you see blue everywhere when you look through blue-tinted glass simply because the glass was tinted with blue. if you look outside of the glass, nothing will be blue.in other words, how things look may seem different if looked at from different perspectives.

i have been exposed to pisay life for 4 years, and since then i had been looking at the world from a pisay student's point of view. and now that we are being stripped of this pisay-tinted glass with which i had looked thorugh to view the world for so long, we are blinded by how the world looks without pisay life. so this was where i had been mistaken.

now, i'm trying to look at my future from different points of view. nevetheless, i will never know what might happen in the future. so i cannot say on whether i'll be enjoying my stay in UP diliman at this point. because i have not yet gone through it. even if i'm looking through my glasses, through the blue-tinted glass, or through pisay life and experience, i will never know what lies ahead.

only God knows the future. the only do is to make sure that we have a clear look, a fresh paradigm at what lies ahead...a

grades

2007-01-21T17:13:00.000+08:00

what's with grades? i don't know why in the first place i've become so grade conscious - that i worry so much that i would not make it into the director's list. third quarter had passed and i might not make it (for the third time in a row this year) into the director's list. and yet i'm so close. but why am i still mad at myself for getting a grade like 2.50?

and then it dawned on me. i am aiming for the wrong goal. i had for this year made my end the grades, not the means. and i realized how stupid i was. grades should not be the end, but a means for a higher and better goal. and that is learning and experience. sure, grades will help me get a good job, or for applying for college, but it would not matter much after that. sure. it would determine whether i get to make it onto the director's list. oh sure. i would be happy if i see my name on my list. but after that, what? will there be peace on earth if i see my name on that list?

the point is.. grades should not be ultimate goal in learning. they are just numerical figures. they would not matter much in the future. people will seldom remember you just because of your grades. they would not say that you got a 1.25 in this subject on your deathbed. people would not talk about their grades during alumni homecomings, because there are things much more important than getting flat 1.0's. and that was what i should have realized long ago.

in my final quarter in pisay, i want to make a difference. i will try not to mind about my grades. i would do my best to learn without minding my grades. in other words, i will no longer be grade conscious. i will not care whether i make it into the director's list. i don't care whether i get another line of 2 in econ or str. i just want to learn. because this is my last in pisay. there is no second chance.

a life-changing retreat

2007-01-07T18:56:00.000+08:00

ang retreat ng batch 07 naganap sa angels' hills sa tagaytay, nagsimula noong friday, at natapos kanina ay ang isa sa mga pinakamemorable days sa aking buhay at sa aking stay sa pisay.

nung night bago nagretreat ko lang inayos ang gamit ko. nung time na yun di pa ako maxadong excited na magretreat kc iniisip ko ung les miserables. akala ko kc nung time n un sa tuesday na ung long test sa les miserables eh di ko pa maxadong naintindihan ung simula.. tapos kelangan ko pang matapos ang mga

kaya nagpray ako nun. sana magising ako nang maaga. nasabi ko rin na sana mag-enjoy ako sa retreat.

ayun, the next day, nagising nga ako nang maaga. pero mga past 7 pa rin ako nakarating kc ang tagal ng service ko eh. don't know kung why.

the day before, binanggit na aattend kami ng first 3 periods. rawr. may physics. at least alam ko ung score ko sa bio perio at sa econ perio.

after ng physics.. pumasok na kami ng bus. i forgot kung kelan kami umalis. parang mga 9.30-9.45. sa gilid ako umupo. katabi ko si ron. unfortunately. kc alam kong aasarin ako nun kay jmcq sa buong journey.. oh well.

nanood kami ng alien vs. predator on the bus. mga 12 na ata nung naglunch kami sa carlos' pizza. somewhere xa sa tagaytay. malapit sa angels' hills. ang galing nga eh. hindi pizza ang sinerve sa amin. may 'pizza' pa naman sa pangalan nung place. di pa nga ako gaano nabusog eh. oh well. pero ang ganda ng view mo sa taal! un na ata ang closest view ko sa volcano mismo. wow. ang ganda nya talaga. at di ko akalain na napakaliit nya talaga. wala nga lang akong pic kc low bat na ako nung andun kmi. tnx, celine. :)

after nun, deretso na kami angels' hills. nang andun na kami.. binaba namin ung bags sa dorm. tapos deretso kami conference center. nagkaroon ng orientation. mas maikli ung orientation ngayon kc andun dn kmi last year. kaya alam na namin ang do's and dont's. parang purpose lng nun ay para maalala ulet namin.

anyway, after nun, bumalik kami dorm, kumuha ng keys sa locker, nag-unahan sa mga higaan. katabi ko nga si ron. parehas kaming sa taas. di naman kalayuan si warner, si justin, at si romar. after nun ang first 2 talks. about identity ung isa.. tapos i forgot ung topic ng 2nd na talk. sorry.

later that night, palanca giving. at ung strips thingy. grabe. napakadramatic ng moment n un. d ko mapigilang umiyak kc ngayon ko lang nerealize na madami palang nagmamahal sa akin. madami dn akong palancang natanggap. di ko rin akalain na madami ang kakausap sa akin, magpray-over sa akin. i praise and thank the Lord na i am blessed with friends who never forgot me. (the tears come welling in my eyes as i wrote that sentence.)

i did the same on my part. nung sila na, i prayed over them, kinausap ko sila. nagsorry dn ako sa mga people na nasaktan ko.. nasiyahan dn ako sa time n un kc nagkaisa ang lahat ng tao. nawala ang mga awayan, nagkaayusan ang lahat. madami ring umiyak, di lang mga babae.

the next day ay nagkaroon ng 2 more talks. nung noon ay nagkaroon ng obstacle course. team I ako. although di kami nanalo (nalaman namin ang panalong team bago kami umuwi), nag-enjoy ako sa pagcheer sa mga gumawa nung task, sa pagcheer after nung race (which has a somewhat seductive look) kakatakbo, sa pagkain ng sibuyas, at sa paghulog sa akin after ako idaan sa tali.. :)

the same day ay dumating ang mga facilitators thingy. katulad nung last yr. naiinis ako kay kuya leo kasi naman wala xa gaanong ginawa. actually nga, hindi si kuya leo ang nakipag-1-on-1 sa akin. si jerico. paano ba naman kc inutusan siya ni kuya leo na makipag-1-on-1 sa iba. oh well. madami kaming napag-usapan ni jerico. kc parang katulad lng un ng isang ordinaryong chat namin sa caf, sa front lob, o kung nakikisabay xa sa service. pero mas serious ang usap namin ngayon. xempre, retreat eh. nalaman ko sa kanya ang strategy nya kaya biglang taas ang average niya nung 2nd qtr last school year. dinededicate nya ang studies niya kay God. sinabi niya na hindi ang grades ang dapat lang abutin. kc grades lang yan. just numerical figures. sure.. magiging helpful xa pag mag-aapply ng trabaho, o para sa pagtake ng exam, pero after nun di na rin xa gnun needed. instead ay isipin natin na ang pag-aaral ay para kay Lord. para un sa kanyang glory. tumalab naman un. nang sinubukan ko sa les miserables, gumana xa. in fairness.

the same day dn ay nagconfession. nakapagconfess ako ng sins ko. ang gaan ng feeling na nakapagconfess ng sins kasi nawala na ang mga mabigat na pasanin dahil sa kasalanan.

after nun ay ang praise fest. sa una, medyo masaya pa.. kc may dance move para sa isang song na ang cute pero nakakatawa pag mabilis. pero eventually naging mas "sad" na ung mga songs. di ko ulet mapigilang umiyak kc narealize ko na napakasama kong tao. ako ay hindi perpekto. and yet kelangan pang si Lord ang kumatok sa aking puso upang tanggapin siya. nagpapasalamat naman ako na si Lord is one of second chances. alam kong pinatawad nya kami sa aming mga kasalanan. ika nga ng dad ni Arun Gogna, "nagpatalo si Jesus para manalo ka. He died on the cross to save you."

the next day ay mass tapos shared prayers ng buong batch. ipinagdasal ng lahat ang pagpapasalamat sa retreat, sa pagpapasalamat sa batch 07, at marami pa. madami ring naging emosyonal lalo na sa mga linyang "Lord, in a few weeks ay graduate na kami.. as we go on our separate ways, wala sanang magkakalimutan. Friends forever. Kasi hindi lamang isang batch ang 07. isang pamilya na." its a sad reality that we had to face. even though i never got the chance to pray in front ng 07, i pray that may we be ready to face what lies ahead. 07 may not be together physically, but every 07 will always be in heart. (the tears start to flow as i write the last sentence.)

after nun, batch picture. ngayon ko lang talaga napansin na NAPAKAVAIN ng batch. more yet electron. may instinct eh. makakita lang ng camera pose na agad. oh well..

all in all, naging masaya, emosyonal, nakakatuwa, madrama, etc. ang retreat. although 3 days and 2 nights lang xa, a relatively short time, isa itong retreat na hindi ko malilimutan sa buong buhay ko.

eto dapat ang dinasal ko if i were given the chance. hinihiling ko, mambabasa, na isipin mo na ang susunod na mga talata ay isang dasal.

Lord, thank you for that successful retreat. Thank you for making everybody of batch '07 realize how you love us. Lord, we know how we much we have sinned-against you, against others, and against ourselves. Thank you Lord for giving us a second chance to rise again, to be called worthy to do our mission on earth. Thank you Lord for batch 07. Thank you Lord for putting every person here in batch 07. Lord we know that you have not placed us in Pisay, better yet in batch 07 randomly. We are here for a purpose Lord. Help us to find our purpose, our mission in earth, and help us to use all our skills and talents to be successful in our mission.

Lord, in a few months, we are no longer Pisay students but alumni. After that, all of us will go our ways. We might not see each other in a long time. Lord, when that time comes, may we be ready to face what lies ahead in the world called college. And as we leave high school life behind and step into the threshold of college life, may we not forget each other-our classmates, friends, soulmates and batchmates. May we cherish every memory in our short Pisay stay-good and bad times, overnights, parties, retreats, exams, and even ordinary everyday classes.

pano ba yan. hanggang dito lang muna ako. aayusin ko pa gamit ko. magbabasa pa ako ng les miserables. matutulog ako ng maaga para di ako late bukas at dahil may pt kami bukas. see'ya!

thank you Lord for everything. :)

magpapasukan na...

2007-01-02T13:42:00.000+08:00

haay... kay bilis ng panahon, 'no.. (at kay bagal ng internet connection ko.. ang tagal ng dinadownload ko eh wala pang 5 mb un.. anyway..) bukas ay magpapasukan na. (bukas nga ba? sori talaga. di ko alam.)

mixed reactions ako.. partly excited kasi makikita ko n muli ang pisay, ang electron, ang 07,... at malungkot kasi parang super ikli nung bakasyon. isa pa, di pa ata ako handa na tumanggap muli ng mga baha ng requirements..

parang kahapon lang yung paskorus.. parang kahapon lang ang pasko.. at parang kahapon lang ang new year.. actually..kahapon nga. :) pero the point is tapos na ang bakasyon. tapos na ang halos isang buwang wala sa pisay.. halos isang buwang hindi nakapaglakad sa mga corridors sa shb o sa astb.. (except sa mga intel people na nagtagal pa ng isang linggo sa pisay).

sadyang kay bilis ng panahon.. di na lang natin mamamalayan andyan na ung econ long test about keynesian thingy.. (nakalimutan ko na talaga. mamaya pa ako mag-aaral ng econ. after nito.) or ung long test tungkol sa hinayupak na libro ni victor hugo (nirerespeto ko po ang mga patay.. naiinis lang ako kasi di ko maintindihan ung first part.. bobo na kasi ako. pasensya.).. di na lang natin mamamalayan na ymsat na.. at time n para iset up ung tarpaulin para sa str.. ang everything... di na lang natin mamamalayan na gagraduate na pala tayo!!! (ayoko na.. nakakaiyak na.)

oh well. kung pasukan na talaga bukas (bukas nga ba talaga!!! sabihin nyo sa kin kung hindi...) wala na tayong magagawa kundi sa harapin ito. maayos ko na nga gamit ko.. ayokong malalate pa ako bukas dahil lang sa mag-aayos pa ako ng gamit ko..

cge.. hanggang dito na lang. see 'ya all bukas!!! happy new year ulet!! :)

KUNG HINDI NGA TALAGA BUKAS AY PAKISABI SA AKIN. pasensya na kung makulit kasi hindi talaga ako sigurado. magtatanong na rin ako para di kayo maabala kung saka-sakali...